I moved on Friday. I'm not far from the old place, but it's far enough away from Rodney. It's an apartment building, which isn't ideal. Too close to like 4 other families... but, it's away from Rodney, so it's pretty great. I still haven't really unpacked.
4 of 6 of my cats have got under my bed since moving... When I was setting my bed down to set it up, Fat got stuck under it, for five hours... until my mom and I got desperate, and checked under the bed, only to be surprised we actually found him. When we were getting him out, Jake went under. An hour later I heard her growling, and we got her out. Jon is small enough to go under and out as she pleases. Aaron can get under, but she can't get out....
Where it's exam week, and we've had two snow days, tomorrow when I am home I will work on organizing my room.
I'm at Johnny's right now. I spent the night here last night. I had a dream, where I went to a SPCA, and I was going to adopt a whale, but it was too expensive, so I got a pink puppy instead. Hahaha. (: I want a pink puppy now.
I'm finished with my exams. I did good on math and english, of course. But, like expected, I failed Physics, for sure! Oh well.
Next semester, starting Friday, I have Math 12, Agrifoods 11, Adv. Bio 12, and Sociology 12.
Wednesday, February 01, 2012
Friday, January 06, 2012
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I haven't posted in a while.
Today, Johnny and I went at got two baby rats. A siamese and a hooded (fawn), both girls. They're so small, and still shy, but that's understandable. And in maybe two months, the guy should have some blue's and hairless ready, which I want... XD
We had quite a bit of fun. But, like we've been doing quite a bit recently, we've been talking about Sarah (the girl he cheated on me with). And I said, for the first time ever, that he had treated me like shit for most of out relationship.
He is a lot better, and nicer now. He's so much different, and treats me better, and actually cares, I think. But this stuff still bothers me, and I still don't trust him.
I still think of what they did, and bring it up.
I read his facebook messages, text messages, saved conversations on msn, and the saved message between them on msn, I emailed to myself and have access to whenever I want now...
I know it's horrible for me to do, but what he did to cause me to be like this is horrible too.
I just wish there was a way for him to make it up to me for what he did, but there's nothing he could do to make it up to me. I can't forgive him, and I shouldn't. But I still want to be with him.
I don't really know what to write about though.. I just want to talk to someone, mainly him, or something...
I guess I'll go now...
Today, Johnny and I went at got two baby rats. A siamese and a hooded (fawn), both girls. They're so small, and still shy, but that's understandable. And in maybe two months, the guy should have some blue's and hairless ready, which I want... XD
We had quite a bit of fun. But, like we've been doing quite a bit recently, we've been talking about Sarah (the girl he cheated on me with). And I said, for the first time ever, that he had treated me like shit for most of out relationship.
He is a lot better, and nicer now. He's so much different, and treats me better, and actually cares, I think. But this stuff still bothers me, and I still don't trust him.
I still think of what they did, and bring it up.
I read his facebook messages, text messages, saved conversations on msn, and the saved message between them on msn, I emailed to myself and have access to whenever I want now...
I know it's horrible for me to do, but what he did to cause me to be like this is horrible too.
I just wish there was a way for him to make it up to me for what he did, but there's nothing he could do to make it up to me. I can't forgive him, and I shouldn't. But I still want to be with him.
I don't really know what to write about though.. I just want to talk to someone, mainly him, or something...
I guess I'll go now...
Friday, December 23, 2011
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I'm really bored. It's 9:20, usually I'd be in bed by now, but I had a nap from 5 until 7:30. I also want to talk to Johnny, and he wont be on for a while. We didn't talk much today, we were both kind of busy. I think when he does eventually get on, if I'm still up, I'll just get him or call me, or vice versa. That way I can lay in bed while talking. My mom and I went shopping at 2 am last night, so we wouldn't have to deal with the crowds.. I got a pillow and play-doh. We aren't really celebrating Christmas here this year, so those were kind of my presents. XD The pillow is nice and comfy. I'm getting another one for Johnny, but he doesn't quite know yet. I'm also getting him shoes for Christmas. I got my brother, father, grandmother, and father's girlfriend gifts last night.
I'm watching Snow Buddies right now.. XD
I'm getting really tired right now.
Now I'm making noodles and drinking chocolate soy milk.
And I have nothing else to talk about...
I went to Johnny's a few days ago, for three nights. We got along pretty well for the mostpart. On the 4th day, we went to the hospital to have his chest and stomache checked out because it's been bothering him a lot recently. Apparently he has some stomache issue that, by taking a now prescribed medicine, should clear up in a month, which is really good.
I'm still tired. My tongue has been hurting all day. I don't really know why, it was likely something I ate, but I don't know what.
It's almost 10 now... I'm so tired. XD
I guess I'll go now. I have to put dishes away.
I'm watching Snow Buddies right now.. XD
I'm getting really tired right now.
Now I'm making noodles and drinking chocolate soy milk.
And I have nothing else to talk about...
I went to Johnny's a few days ago, for three nights. We got along pretty well for the mostpart. On the 4th day, we went to the hospital to have his chest and stomache checked out because it's been bothering him a lot recently. Apparently he has some stomache issue that, by taking a now prescribed medicine, should clear up in a month, which is really good.
I'm still tired. My tongue has been hurting all day. I don't really know why, it was likely something I ate, but I don't know what.
It's almost 10 now... I'm so tired. XD
I guess I'll go now. I have to put dishes away.
Saturday, December 17, 2011
it's been a while...
I don't know how many rats I had last time I posted, I think it was 17, with Ruffles newly here.
Anyways, it's now 21. I got three girls two weeks ago, Nina, Sky, and Kino, they're cute, and 3 and 1 years old.
And now to describe how I got rat number 21, I'm just going to paste what I said to Johnny in a message on facebook last night, because it's long....
I want to tell you about Cherrios....my new rat. There is a very good explination though! My mom had to go check Canadian Tire for something, and Rodney isn't home so she asked me to go with her, and I said yes. And she asked me to actually go in the store with her, so I said I would, as long as she took me "just to look" in the pet store. So, we went in and I saw two really cute rats, but one was this little dumbo who looked cute, but really grumpily! So I of course was attached to him. And then these guys came in to buy mice as snake food, and decided to buy a rat too, as food. And they said "get the black one." My Cherrio is black, so I got really scared that they were going to take my boy! And I went in back, and I was shaking, and breathing heavily, I was so scared! So my mom went up to the guys and asked if we could look at the rat to see if it was the grumpy one I liked, and luckily it wasn't. But I had been terrified! So my mom couldn't say no after that, and we got him! I wanted the other black one too that I liked, but she said no. But I got my Cherrio out! And then when we were in the parking lot, we saw those guys again, and they had lost their rat in the parking lot! So it's not even going to get eating by a snake.. I honestly hope it gets hit by a car, rather than freezing or starving to death. And I hope they didn't go in for another rat.. because then two rats would have died, rather than just one.
But my Cherrio is alive. I named his Cherrio because he loves Cherrios even more than Ruffles. He will also live with Ruffles, I introduced them a bit today, but they can't live together just yet, so for now he's in a box. He's really cute and friendly! His back and head are all black, but one white line like Ruffles has going from his forhead to his nose diagonally, but thicker and easier to see. But his tummy is mainly white. XD He also has a very small umbilical hernia, but at that size, I wouldn't worry about it. He's wonderful! And doesn't really look grump anymore, only when I first saw him, but he's still cute, and will hopefully look like that again some time! XD
See, I had to get Cherrio, I almost died because of him. Well, not die, but I was starting to sweat and get really hot and light headed like I was about to faint. Or cry. Either one, really.
Winter break also started yesterday. I'm not celebrating Christmas with my mom this year though, I told her to spend the money she would have spent on my for Christmas on moving, away from her alcoholic boyfriend, so we're moving hopefully mid-January. But I celebrate Christmas twice anyways, since my parents are divorced, so it's not like I'm missing out on anything. And some kids can't even celebrate any year, and I get two Christmases, which makes me seem like a horrible person. My mom said Cherrio was my Christmas present. And besides,Cherrio and moving, is very good, in my eyes, so those are pretty much my Christmas presents.
I'm really tired. And hungry. I was sick last week and didn't sleep good. And there's hardly anything to eat here, because my mom and I haven't gone to get groceries yet.
And about breeding, which I posted before... Harriet with Merlin, and Aubrey with Theodore. In February, so the babies are born during March break.
But, I have nothing else to write about, so I'll go now.
Anyways, it's now 21. I got three girls two weeks ago, Nina, Sky, and Kino, they're cute, and 3 and 1 years old.
And now to describe how I got rat number 21, I'm just going to paste what I said to Johnny in a message on facebook last night, because it's long....
I want to tell you about Cherrios....my new rat. There is a very good explination though! My mom had to go check Canadian Tire for something, and Rodney isn't home so she asked me to go with her, and I said yes. And she asked me to actually go in the store with her, so I said I would, as long as she took me "just to look" in the pet store. So, we went in and I saw two really cute rats, but one was this little dumbo who looked cute, but really grumpily! So I of course was attached to him. And then these guys came in to buy mice as snake food, and decided to buy a rat too, as food. And they said "get the black one." My Cherrio is black, so I got really scared that they were going to take my boy! And I went in back, and I was shaking, and breathing heavily, I was so scared! So my mom went up to the guys and asked if we could look at the rat to see if it was the grumpy one I liked, and luckily it wasn't. But I had been terrified! So my mom couldn't say no after that, and we got him! I wanted the other black one too that I liked, but she said no. But I got my Cherrio out! And then when we were in the parking lot, we saw those guys again, and they had lost their rat in the parking lot! So it's not even going to get eating by a snake.. I honestly hope it gets hit by a car, rather than freezing or starving to death. And I hope they didn't go in for another rat.. because then two rats would have died, rather than just one.
But my Cherrio is alive. I named his Cherrio because he loves Cherrios even more than Ruffles. He will also live with Ruffles, I introduced them a bit today, but they can't live together just yet, so for now he's in a box. He's really cute and friendly! His back and head are all black, but one white line like Ruffles has going from his forhead to his nose diagonally, but thicker and easier to see. But his tummy is mainly white. XD He also has a very small umbilical hernia, but at that size, I wouldn't worry about it. He's wonderful! And doesn't really look grump anymore, only when I first saw him, but he's still cute, and will hopefully look like that again some time! XD
See, I had to get Cherrio, I almost died because of him. Well, not die, but I was starting to sweat and get really hot and light headed like I was about to faint. Or cry. Either one, really.
Winter break also started yesterday. I'm not celebrating Christmas with my mom this year though, I told her to spend the money she would have spent on my for Christmas on moving, away from her alcoholic boyfriend, so we're moving hopefully mid-January. But I celebrate Christmas twice anyways, since my parents are divorced, so it's not like I'm missing out on anything. And some kids can't even celebrate any year, and I get two Christmases, which makes me seem like a horrible person. My mom said Cherrio was my Christmas present. And besides,Cherrio and moving, is very good, in my eyes, so those are pretty much my Christmas presents.
I'm really tired. And hungry. I was sick last week and didn't sleep good. And there's hardly anything to eat here, because my mom and I haven't gone to get groceries yet.
And about breeding, which I posted before... Harriet with Merlin, and Aubrey with Theodore. In February, so the babies are born during March break.
But, I have nothing else to write about, so I'll go now.
Sunday, November 13, 2011
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I'm at Johnny's right now, but he is not here. He went to his neighbors for an hour after being invited over to get high. So I'm staying here and thinking of all the sneaky stuff I could but probably wont do. XD He'll be gone for about an hour. I was supposed to go home tonight, but he asked me if I wanted to stay again tonight and of course I said yes. So I get to miss double english tomorrow (two hours of class presentations) and go in at lunch.
Johnny got the video game Skyrim, which he's been playing a lot. And I've just been on his laptop.
I also planned out some rat breeding. I am breeding Harriet in January to Merlin, and then around February 19th, I'm breeding Aubrey to Theodore, so she will give birth over March break. And then in about a year and a half, one of Aubrey's babies either back to Aubrey, or to Josh. Since apparently it is safe to inbreed rats. I just learned today. And I want a dumbo baby, and Aubrey and Theodore wont produce any, but their baby will when bred to a dumbo. And I wont be breeding Bradley I don't think unless his health seems to improve, and his illness was a one time thing.. I'll watch him and Josh as they get older. I like Bradley's personality better than Josh's, but Josh seems healthier.
Anyways, I don't really have anything else to post right now...so I'll go. bye!
Johnny got the video game Skyrim, which he's been playing a lot. And I've just been on his laptop.
I also planned out some rat breeding. I am breeding Harriet in January to Merlin, and then around February 19th, I'm breeding Aubrey to Theodore, so she will give birth over March break. And then in about a year and a half, one of Aubrey's babies either back to Aubrey, or to Josh. Since apparently it is safe to inbreed rats. I just learned today. And I want a dumbo baby, and Aubrey and Theodore wont produce any, but their baby will when bred to a dumbo. And I wont be breeding Bradley I don't think unless his health seems to improve, and his illness was a one time thing.. I'll watch him and Josh as they get older. I like Bradley's personality better than Josh's, but Josh seems healthier.
Anyways, I don't really have anything else to post right now...so I'll go. bye!
Sunday, November 06, 2011
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My laptop broke Friday night. So from now on my posts will be shorter, because I am using my iPod.
Iwas also at johnny's Friday night… it was both good and bad we talked about a lot of stuff, like him cheating and my childhood, which wasn't a very good time in mu life. But we also had some good times too, like watching weird movies. I feel bad for how iam acting now Nd stuff since he cheated but I cahttps ( reAlly that should say can't) help it.. But we both want to move past it. Hopefully things get better soon. He was with friends last might Nd stoped in today after taking one home just to say hi which aS really sweet.
Now I am going to type S fast as I normally would so you can see how horrible it is on an iPod.
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Iwas also at johnny's Friday night… it was both good and bad we talked about a lot of stuff, like him cheating and my childhood, which wasn't a very good time in mu life. But we also had some good times too, like watching weird movies. I feel bad for how iam acting now Nd stuff since he cheated but I cahttps ( reAlly that should say can't) help it.. But we both want to move past it. Hopefully things get better soon. He was with friends last might Nd stoped in today after taking one home just to say hi which aS really sweet.
Now I am going to type S fast as I normally would so you can see how horrible it is on an iPod.
I ja e physics tomorrow thAT if due. &5/ts Nlab TNT I jadnto xo with a groisp since we didn't have time unclEs webjadbto do it flrrjrr of. Chat in face poon чччi wonder whY poon means this isn't as bad as I ezpd t I
fern gberrrr this is. Realty fun I sjoudl do itlre often I used to cl this s lot o history ads I probably seem like a jgrnoffofp to anyone reaongy blog hopefullytnere zed ko new resign thYmine a
s stung awY! Well this is grttkg stupid Toni sjoudl fo Nd stop doign rios... Ateadfndtkp doing it in public m na bog! Bye!
Wednesday, November 02, 2011
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I don't really have much to post about...
I didn't go to school today, because I got annoyed, and cleaned my rat cages in the middle of the night last night, and I was exhausted today.... I know, I'm a rebel.
But, Johnny was also coming over this morning, and was going to stay until I came home from school, so that was always another good reason to stay home...
So I hung out with him all day.
We went Trick or Treating on Monday. I also shaved his face, because he didn't want to look so old while trick or treating. I had a lot more fun than I should have doing that..
I was supposed to be presenting a current event in english today, but I wasn't there... I feel bad, because my class is so busy with presentations, and this is making it harder for us. I'll likely be doing it tomorrow.
I don't really have much else to say...
I didn't go to school today, because I got annoyed, and cleaned my rat cages in the middle of the night last night, and I was exhausted today.... I know, I'm a rebel.
But, Johnny was also coming over this morning, and was going to stay until I came home from school, so that was always another good reason to stay home...
So I hung out with him all day.
We went Trick or Treating on Monday. I also shaved his face, because he didn't want to look so old while trick or treating. I had a lot more fun than I should have doing that..
I was supposed to be presenting a current event in english today, but I wasn't there... I feel bad, because my class is so busy with presentations, and this is making it harder for us. I'll likely be doing it tomorrow.
I don't really have much else to say...
Friday, October 28, 2011
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I haven't posted in a few days...
Last week we got grad photos done in school.. it makes me feel thirty.. XD
I think mine make my face look really fat. But anyways, here's one of them:
It's really grainy, or whatever that word is for all the white fuzzyness, because of the scanner.
You can see my neck tendon really clearly too. XD
Anyways, next topic..
I went to a nearby college/university (it's refered to as both, so I don't know which it actually is) today to talk to a professor about my science fair project for this year. I'm using soil as bedding for rats, and then seeing if it can be put back into the environment, but since it's winter, I'm going to be using it to grow plants instead to see how it works (indoors).
Third topic..
There was a presentation in my Adv. English class yesterday about a business programme offered at the college/university I was at earlier today. It's an International Business programme, which sounds really good and interesting, and gives you 6 months work experience over the 4 years. You also move to The Netherlands for a year for it. It sounds really amazing, and something I'd be interested in. But, then there's my pets and Johnny, if I went, they couldn't go. Well, Johnny could, but he doesn't want to. So I don't know if I'm going to go. If I went Johnny and I'd have to break up, and I don't really want to do that. But I might still apply for 2013, because by then, we could be broken up, or he'd be willing to go there, or stay together while I go.
He had a girlfriend in Brazil (foreign exchange student) who he was planning on staying with until he could go there to see her, or potentially move there, and was staying with her until they could be together, even more than a year long, like not being with other girls or anything, so I think it's total bullshit, that he's refusing to even try to stay together during that year, to be honest. He was younger then, and they weren't even together for very long and she treated him like shit.
It's my life, I should do what I want.
I don't really have much else to say. I'm tired and sleeping all the time pretty much.
I'm going trick or treating with Johnny on Monday.
Last week we got grad photos done in school.. it makes me feel thirty.. XD
I think mine make my face look really fat. But anyways, here's one of them:
You can see my neck tendon really clearly too. XD
Anyways, next topic..
I went to a nearby college/university (it's refered to as both, so I don't know which it actually is) today to talk to a professor about my science fair project for this year. I'm using soil as bedding for rats, and then seeing if it can be put back into the environment, but since it's winter, I'm going to be using it to grow plants instead to see how it works (indoors).
Third topic..
There was a presentation in my Adv. English class yesterday about a business programme offered at the college/university I was at earlier today. It's an International Business programme, which sounds really good and interesting, and gives you 6 months work experience over the 4 years. You also move to The Netherlands for a year for it. It sounds really amazing, and something I'd be interested in. But, then there's my pets and Johnny, if I went, they couldn't go. Well, Johnny could, but he doesn't want to. So I don't know if I'm going to go. If I went Johnny and I'd have to break up, and I don't really want to do that. But I might still apply for 2013, because by then, we could be broken up, or he'd be willing to go there, or stay together while I go.
He had a girlfriend in Brazil (foreign exchange student) who he was planning on staying with until he could go there to see her, or potentially move there, and was staying with her until they could be together, even more than a year long, like not being with other girls or anything, so I think it's total bullshit, that he's refusing to even try to stay together during that year, to be honest. He was younger then, and they weren't even together for very long and she treated him like shit.
It's my life, I should do what I want.
I don't really have much else to say. I'm tired and sleeping all the time pretty much.
I'm going trick or treating with Johnny on Monday.
Saturday, October 22, 2011
4 hours to go..
I just laid down in bed (about 15 minutes ago now), and I was getting all comfy, and ready to fall asleep, when Johnny called.
He's at his friends house, just down the road a bit. He asked if he could come over here for the night to sleep, instead of on the floor there, and I of course said yes. So now, instead of continuing my happy adventure to dream land, I'm trying to stay up until he gets here, in about 4 hours. (Around 3am..) Haha.
I find it kind of funny... I messaged him offline on Facebook to say good night, and that if he wanted to, he could call to talk or anything. And then 5 minutes after I lay down, he calls. I had assumed he got my message, but he didn't. And now I have to stay awake. I wasn't even tired until I laid down! XD
I was at his house last night! (: So, we get to sleep together two nights in a row, which will be nice. I miss double sleepovers. This is the second since school started, and it's been two months!
Oh, and Johnny and I buried the hamster. That was the second animal he buried this week. His best friends dog passed away earlier in the week.
My mother and I are also moving out. Her and her boyfriend are seperating (finally! It's been like 3 years) we'll be out by December 1st. Hopefully it's not too hard to find a place.
I'm so tired.....
I finished reading the book Wintergirls today. I started on Thursday or Friday. It was really good. In the end, I thought she might actually die, but it's not a book my english teacher would choose for the class, so it has a happy ending.
My english teacher has us read the worst books! Like they're good quality, but so depressing. Last year it was The Kite Runner, this year it was A Fine Balance.
I have a lot of homework to do tomorrow.
I have a Math Assignment, a Physics assignment, a Physics lab, 40 queue cards with facts and proper MLA formatting for sources due on the 27th, and a 20 minute long english presentation due on the 2nd of November.
I don't know what to do to pass the time until Johnny gets here....Which is why I'm kind of rambling on now.
I'm going Trick or Treating with Johnny this year! (: I haven't gone in like 4 years, and after trying on 3 or 4 different days, I finally convinced Johnny to take me. I just have to get us both costumes. I can't eat most of the stuff I'll get, making the people around me very lucky.
I did tell him I might be asleep when he got here... I left my bedroom door unlocked, and the house door unlocked too. So he can just come in on his own..
I might go to sleep, but then I'd feel kind of bad. Though I could easily wake up around 3, because I often do unintentionally...
I don't know, but I'm going to go for now.
He's at his friends house, just down the road a bit. He asked if he could come over here for the night to sleep, instead of on the floor there, and I of course said yes. So now, instead of continuing my happy adventure to dream land, I'm trying to stay up until he gets here, in about 4 hours. (Around 3am..) Haha.
I find it kind of funny... I messaged him offline on Facebook to say good night, and that if he wanted to, he could call to talk or anything. And then 5 minutes after I lay down, he calls. I had assumed he got my message, but he didn't. And now I have to stay awake. I wasn't even tired until I laid down! XD
I was at his house last night! (: So, we get to sleep together two nights in a row, which will be nice. I miss double sleepovers. This is the second since school started, and it's been two months!
Oh, and Johnny and I buried the hamster. That was the second animal he buried this week. His best friends dog passed away earlier in the week.
My mother and I are also moving out. Her and her boyfriend are seperating (finally! It's been like 3 years) we'll be out by December 1st. Hopefully it's not too hard to find a place.
I'm so tired.....
I finished reading the book Wintergirls today. I started on Thursday or Friday. It was really good. In the end, I thought she might actually die, but it's not a book my english teacher would choose for the class, so it has a happy ending.
My english teacher has us read the worst books! Like they're good quality, but so depressing. Last year it was The Kite Runner, this year it was A Fine Balance.
I have a lot of homework to do tomorrow.
I have a Math Assignment, a Physics assignment, a Physics lab, 40 queue cards with facts and proper MLA formatting for sources due on the 27th, and a 20 minute long english presentation due on the 2nd of November.
I don't know what to do to pass the time until Johnny gets here....Which is why I'm kind of rambling on now.
I'm going Trick or Treating with Johnny this year! (: I haven't gone in like 4 years, and after trying on 3 or 4 different days, I finally convinced Johnny to take me. I just have to get us both costumes. I can't eat most of the stuff I'll get, making the people around me very lucky.
I did tell him I might be asleep when he got here... I left my bedroom door unlocked, and the house door unlocked too. So he can just come in on his own..
I might go to sleep, but then I'd feel kind of bad. Though I could easily wake up around 3, because I often do unintentionally...
I don't know, but I'm going to go for now.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
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Johnny's hamster died.
I didn't know why, so I checked online. Apparently hamsters normally live 2 - 3 years. The hamster was 2 and a half.
I had noticed she hadn't been moving all day, which is normal for her, because she's been really lazy recently. I don't know anything about hamsters, so I didn't know why. I also didn't even know their life span.
About 30 minutes ago, I thought about how she hadn't moved all day, so I went to check to see if she was alive. Before I even touched her, I could feel the coldness radiating off of her. But I still touched her, just to be sure. I didn't want her to be dead. Especially since she was in my care, and I have to tell Johnny about it in an hour when he comes on Facebook to talk. I'm going to ask him if I can call, so I can at least say it with my voice, rather than type it.
I put her in a little box, with a bunch of shavings. If I had cotton balls, I'd give her those too, because she loved cotton balls. I might get some tomorrow if I can. I want to make her a warm little bed to be buried in.
When I picked her up to be placed in the box, I checked to see how she looked. She was already stiff. Luckily, she looked exactly like she was asleep, so there's a good possibilty she passed away while sleeping and didn't suffer or anything.
She was originally Johnny's brothers hamster, and he never took care of her. There were times when we'd play with her, and she wouldn't even have food or water, so we'd give her those. We cleaned out her cage. We played with her. We picked her up. And we cared. He did none of those. And we've only been doing this the last few months, so at least the last few months of her life, she had people how cared about her.
I feel like most people wouldn't get upset over a hamster dying. Because, it's "just" a hamster, it wasn't mine, and I only knew her for a few months. But I still cared about her and liked her a lot. I wish I had known her longer.
Hopefully tomorrow Johnny and I can bury her.
I didn't know why, so I checked online. Apparently hamsters normally live 2 - 3 years. The hamster was 2 and a half.
I had noticed she hadn't been moving all day, which is normal for her, because she's been really lazy recently. I don't know anything about hamsters, so I didn't know why. I also didn't even know their life span.
About 30 minutes ago, I thought about how she hadn't moved all day, so I went to check to see if she was alive. Before I even touched her, I could feel the coldness radiating off of her. But I still touched her, just to be sure. I didn't want her to be dead. Especially since she was in my care, and I have to tell Johnny about it in an hour when he comes on Facebook to talk. I'm going to ask him if I can call, so I can at least say it with my voice, rather than type it.
I put her in a little box, with a bunch of shavings. If I had cotton balls, I'd give her those too, because she loved cotton balls. I might get some tomorrow if I can. I want to make her a warm little bed to be buried in.
When I picked her up to be placed in the box, I checked to see how she looked. She was already stiff. Luckily, she looked exactly like she was asleep, so there's a good possibilty she passed away while sleeping and didn't suffer or anything.
She was originally Johnny's brothers hamster, and he never took care of her. There were times when we'd play with her, and she wouldn't even have food or water, so we'd give her those. We cleaned out her cage. We played with her. We picked her up. And we cared. He did none of those. And we've only been doing this the last few months, so at least the last few months of her life, she had people how cared about her.
I feel like most people wouldn't get upset over a hamster dying. Because, it's "just" a hamster, it wasn't mine, and I only knew her for a few months. But I still cared about her and liked her a lot. I wish I had known her longer.
Hopefully tomorrow Johnny and I can bury her.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
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I don't have much to post today... so I don't even really know why I'm posting. Probably because I'm bored and have nothing better to do. Except English and Physics homework...
In English, we have to do two big projects. A research paper, and a current event. Last year, we did them on two different topics, but this year, we were given a wide range on the kind of topics we could choose, and we could do the same for both topics. I think I'm the only one still choosing two topics. Because I want to do the research paper on rats, but a presentation on rats wouldn't be very good, or cause a good debate. So, I'm doing PETA (People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals) as my current event. Because they are extremely debateable. I support their good things and ideas, but they have so many stupid and horrible ideas that I don't fully support them as an organization.
I wont get to talk to Johnny until around 11. He messaged me about 15 minutes ago saying he got a new game and wont be on until then. At least he messaged me to tell me. Often when this happens, he wont even tell me, and I'll spend all day waiting for him to come on.
I'm starting to get really tired, so maybe I'll take a short nap. I haven't taken one in like a week, and I usually take them every one or two days..School is exhausting.
I also can't stand any of my friends. Seriously, after school, I wont have like anything to do with them. I'll rant about them, using their initials rather than whole names.
JM: She's a total bitch. She doesn't care about anyone else. When there was an earthquake, and tsunami in Japan, she said they deserved it for hunting whales. I'm vegan, and I still dont think an entire country should have to deal with the consequences. And she always thinks she's right. ALWAYS. And if you argue against her, she gets all defensive and argues back, even when everyone tells her to shut up. She hates everyone, then says it's because they're rude to her. She's a total bitch to them for no reason, of course they'll be rude to her. And, she even puts down her friends and calls them stupid. Like if she gets a higher mark than a friend, they're automatically stupid, and she's smart and amazing. And she thinks she's better than everyone.
BW: He's not rude, or bitchy like JM is. But, he's oblivious, impossible to talk to, and interupts constantly. It's impossible to talk to him, or to talk to someone else when he's around. Or I'll ask him a question, and he will look at me, and then go about doing whatever, completely ignoring it.
VM: She's a lot like JM. She constantly whines and complains about the stupidest and smallest things. And she's a total bitch to everyone. But not her friends, at least. Like, we were on the bus one day, and before I got out of my seat, two other people passed me and got off, and she said I shouldn't have let them "cut infront of me" and then glared at them until one of them looked back, and looked like she then felt awkward. Seriously... it meant waiting like 3 extra seconds, over something so small and pointless, and she acts like a 9 year old over it. She too hates everyone, and says everyone's mean to her, but she acts like a 9 year old and complains over everything. She hates them and treats them like shit. There's one girl in my grade, who really cares about her grades, and one day last year in math, she was worrying when we were getting a test back about how she was doing, outloud to her friends, and this friend got pissed off, and after class went on about it, and mimicked her in a stupid voice. This has nothing to do with her, so she should be able to ignore it, and continue with HER life, rather than saying how much she hates this girl for worrying about her academic life to her friends.
Those are mainly my only friends in school. And my cousin, who does say lots of stupid things, give stupid ideas, zone one in the middle of me saying something, and sometimes makes it sound like she knows more about rats than me, and gives me advice, which I definately don't need. She annoys me a lot too when she does this stuff, but its'not near as often as the others, who are like that 85% of every day.
In English, we have to do two big projects. A research paper, and a current event. Last year, we did them on two different topics, but this year, we were given a wide range on the kind of topics we could choose, and we could do the same for both topics. I think I'm the only one still choosing two topics. Because I want to do the research paper on rats, but a presentation on rats wouldn't be very good, or cause a good debate. So, I'm doing PETA (People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals) as my current event. Because they are extremely debateable. I support their good things and ideas, but they have so many stupid and horrible ideas that I don't fully support them as an organization.
I wont get to talk to Johnny until around 11. He messaged me about 15 minutes ago saying he got a new game and wont be on until then. At least he messaged me to tell me. Often when this happens, he wont even tell me, and I'll spend all day waiting for him to come on.
I'm starting to get really tired, so maybe I'll take a short nap. I haven't taken one in like a week, and I usually take them every one or two days..School is exhausting.
I also can't stand any of my friends. Seriously, after school, I wont have like anything to do with them. I'll rant about them, using their initials rather than whole names.
JM: She's a total bitch. She doesn't care about anyone else. When there was an earthquake, and tsunami in Japan, she said they deserved it for hunting whales. I'm vegan, and I still dont think an entire country should have to deal with the consequences. And she always thinks she's right. ALWAYS. And if you argue against her, she gets all defensive and argues back, even when everyone tells her to shut up. She hates everyone, then says it's because they're rude to her. She's a total bitch to them for no reason, of course they'll be rude to her. And, she even puts down her friends and calls them stupid. Like if she gets a higher mark than a friend, they're automatically stupid, and she's smart and amazing. And she thinks she's better than everyone.
BW: He's not rude, or bitchy like JM is. But, he's oblivious, impossible to talk to, and interupts constantly. It's impossible to talk to him, or to talk to someone else when he's around. Or I'll ask him a question, and he will look at me, and then go about doing whatever, completely ignoring it.
VM: She's a lot like JM. She constantly whines and complains about the stupidest and smallest things. And she's a total bitch to everyone. But not her friends, at least. Like, we were on the bus one day, and before I got out of my seat, two other people passed me and got off, and she said I shouldn't have let them "cut infront of me" and then glared at them until one of them looked back, and looked like she then felt awkward. Seriously... it meant waiting like 3 extra seconds, over something so small and pointless, and she acts like a 9 year old over it. She too hates everyone, and says everyone's mean to her, but she acts like a 9 year old and complains over everything. She hates them and treats them like shit. There's one girl in my grade, who really cares about her grades, and one day last year in math, she was worrying when we were getting a test back about how she was doing, outloud to her friends, and this friend got pissed off, and after class went on about it, and mimicked her in a stupid voice. This has nothing to do with her, so she should be able to ignore it, and continue with HER life, rather than saying how much she hates this girl for worrying about her academic life to her friends.
Those are mainly my only friends in school. And my cousin, who does say lots of stupid things, give stupid ideas, zone one in the middle of me saying something, and sometimes makes it sound like she knows more about rats than me, and gives me advice, which I definately don't need. She annoys me a lot too when she does this stuff, but its'not near as often as the others, who are like that 85% of every day.
Monday, October 17, 2011
Got a new rat today!
His name is Ruffles. I didn't name him. But I'm keeping his name as it is. He's around 6 months old. He's still pretty shy. But he's so adorable! He came with a nice big cage too. I don't have any photos yet, because of him being shy.
I'm really exhausted and I don't know why. I am most days, but not always this much!
I really need to pee. But my mothers boyfriend (or ex, I don't even know) is in the shower. I say maybe ex, because she said we got a new rat cage today (we didn't even mention that a rat came with the cage) and he said he was moving out. It's pretty pathetic when you decide to move out over a cage. But then again, he's pathetic. He's an alcoholic. Constantly complains about my rats, who he has NOTHING to do with. He doesn't even have to see them. But "he's the man of the house, so he's in charge" So, no rats can be in a room he never goes in, because he dislikes them. I dislike alcohol. Get that out of the fucking house. Seriously. I hope he gets liver cancer. I'm sick of him, by far.
Anyways.. Johnny hasn't been on Facebook to talk to yet today, and I miss him. I always miss him, but I haven't talked to him since last night, so I really miss him!
I don't really forgive him for cheating though. I don't think I ever will. And I try not to, but I do hold it against him. I think about it constantly, but never tell him. I get mad about it all the time. I don't want to be mad at him, or hate him or anything. But, it's hard for my personality not to. Ever since finding out, we argue and disagree and stuff more. And I know that's why. We aren't like we used to be. Things are going amazing, and bad at the same time. And he hardly knows about the bad part. If I talk about it, then it could easily get worse, so I don't want to talk to him about it. And it wouldn't make things better or anything.
Honestly, if it weren't for that incident, I'd say we have a 95% perfect relationship. But with the cheating, it's like 65%.
But I want to stop talking about that. I went to see my friend Brandon while he was working today. I got a bottle of pop. I was too nervous to go in the store alone, so my mom had to come with me. haha.
But my friends annoy me really often too, so... I don't know. Everyone in my life has done something to make me dislike them.
I'm really exhausted and I don't know why. I am most days, but not always this much!
I really need to pee. But my mothers boyfriend (or ex, I don't even know) is in the shower. I say maybe ex, because she said we got a new rat cage today (we didn't even mention that a rat came with the cage) and he said he was moving out. It's pretty pathetic when you decide to move out over a cage. But then again, he's pathetic. He's an alcoholic. Constantly complains about my rats, who he has NOTHING to do with. He doesn't even have to see them. But "he's the man of the house, so he's in charge" So, no rats can be in a room he never goes in, because he dislikes them. I dislike alcohol. Get that out of the fucking house. Seriously. I hope he gets liver cancer. I'm sick of him, by far.
Anyways.. Johnny hasn't been on Facebook to talk to yet today, and I miss him. I always miss him, but I haven't talked to him since last night, so I really miss him!
I don't really forgive him for cheating though. I don't think I ever will. And I try not to, but I do hold it against him. I think about it constantly, but never tell him. I get mad about it all the time. I don't want to be mad at him, or hate him or anything. But, it's hard for my personality not to. Ever since finding out, we argue and disagree and stuff more. And I know that's why. We aren't like we used to be. Things are going amazing, and bad at the same time. And he hardly knows about the bad part. If I talk about it, then it could easily get worse, so I don't want to talk to him about it. And it wouldn't make things better or anything.
Honestly, if it weren't for that incident, I'd say we have a 95% perfect relationship. But with the cheating, it's like 65%.
But I want to stop talking about that. I went to see my friend Brandon while he was working today. I got a bottle of pop. I was too nervous to go in the store alone, so my mom had to come with me. haha.
But my friends annoy me really often too, so... I don't know. Everyone in my life has done something to make me dislike them.
Sunday, October 16, 2011
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Well, I'm not longer sick.
Tomorrow after school, I'm going to look at a rat someone has to find a new home for. It's not too far from where I live.
The TV just said 'The fish in the hat' but it honestly sounded more like 'The bitch in the hat'. My mouth dropped, because this is a kids channel. XD
I don't have much to say... but hey, I'm posting again soon!
I did not do any homework this weekend...
Johnny might be coming over for a bit some day this week. He's going to a friends house, who lives not far from me. And he said he'd be here for a bit. (:
I have 2 hours of Physics and then an hour of math tomorrow morning....
And a test in Physics.
I got 5 week marks on Friday.. I have a 44% in Physics, 51% in Math, and a 93% in Adv. English..
Anyways, I'll go now. Bye.
Tomorrow after school, I'm going to look at a rat someone has to find a new home for. It's not too far from where I live.
The TV just said 'The fish in the hat' but it honestly sounded more like 'The bitch in the hat'. My mouth dropped, because this is a kids channel. XD
I don't have much to say... but hey, I'm posting again soon!
I did not do any homework this weekend...
Johnny might be coming over for a bit some day this week. He's going to a friends house, who lives not far from me. And he said he'd be here for a bit. (:
I have 2 hours of Physics and then an hour of math tomorrow morning....
And a test in Physics.
I got 5 week marks on Friday.. I have a 44% in Physics, 51% in Math, and a 93% in Adv. English..
Anyways, I'll go now. Bye.
Thursday, October 13, 2011
It's been under two weeks since I last posted!
I'm getting pretty active again!....not really....
Well... I have a cold. ):
I only had school Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday this week, due to Thanksgiving, and an inservice. But I have yet to go this week. I'm being forced to go tomorrow, even if I'm still sick.
But, afterwards, Johnny's coming over for the night. (:
I don't know if I mentioned this in my last post.... but I have 4 new rats. Aubrey, Josh, Brooke, and Bradley. They're around 6 weeks old. Aubrey and Brooke are in with the big girls. But Josh and Bradley aren't going in with my big boys until they are big themselves...and they're sick. They have colds, but it's nothing too serious. Brooke has a lump on her tummy. And umbilical hernia... so, a pocket of fat pretty much. When she's old enough, I'm getting it removed, because there's a chance of intestine getting stuck in it and killing her, and I'm not risking it.
I had my cousin over for the night one night, to see the new babies, and Johnny ended up coming over for the night too. He slept on the floor. XD We went to Subway (his choice) and a grocery store, a pet store, and a park, twice (all my choice...) We also watched two scary movies... Devil and I forget the other one. But a guy set a bunch of traps in a house and a family and a burgular who had renovated their house and their cat were trapped inside. Both movies scared me of course. During Devil the only scary scene I actually saw, was the scariest scene of them all.. of course...
Oh, and I didn't mention this earlier, but the new rats brings my total to 16. <3
One day last week, Johnny actually said he missed me, because we don't get to see eachother as much. I'm usually the one to say this, and he usually calls me clingy, so it was nice when he actually said it for once...he's so clingy.... (that was a joke.) He's been pretty sweet and nice (and horrible at the same time) recently. Horrible as in scaring me and tickling me. But he's been nicer and sweeter than normal, which I like.
Anyways, my life is dull and boring...
OH! A girl is missing in a nearby town, so I should say something on that, since everyone's trying to spread the word....
I was going to upload a picture, but for whatever reason, cannot even save one to my computer... so, here's a link instead (lots of pictures there)....
https://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=187045654704578&ref=ts
Anyways... bye.
Well... I have a cold. ):
I only had school Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday this week, due to Thanksgiving, and an inservice. But I have yet to go this week. I'm being forced to go tomorrow, even if I'm still sick.
But, afterwards, Johnny's coming over for the night. (:
I don't know if I mentioned this in my last post.... but I have 4 new rats. Aubrey, Josh, Brooke, and Bradley. They're around 6 weeks old. Aubrey and Brooke are in with the big girls. But Josh and Bradley aren't going in with my big boys until they are big themselves...and they're sick. They have colds, but it's nothing too serious. Brooke has a lump on her tummy. And umbilical hernia... so, a pocket of fat pretty much. When she's old enough, I'm getting it removed, because there's a chance of intestine getting stuck in it and killing her, and I'm not risking it.
I had my cousin over for the night one night, to see the new babies, and Johnny ended up coming over for the night too. He slept on the floor. XD We went to Subway (his choice) and a grocery store, a pet store, and a park, twice (all my choice...) We also watched two scary movies... Devil and I forget the other one. But a guy set a bunch of traps in a house and a family and a burgular who had renovated their house and their cat were trapped inside. Both movies scared me of course. During Devil the only scary scene I actually saw, was the scariest scene of them all.. of course...
Oh, and I didn't mention this earlier, but the new rats brings my total to 16. <3
One day last week, Johnny actually said he missed me, because we don't get to see eachother as much. I'm usually the one to say this, and he usually calls me clingy, so it was nice when he actually said it for once...he's so clingy.... (that was a joke.) He's been pretty sweet and nice (and horrible at the same time) recently. Horrible as in scaring me and tickling me. But he's been nicer and sweeter than normal, which I like.
Anyways, my life is dull and boring...
OH! A girl is missing in a nearby town, so I should say something on that, since everyone's trying to spread the word....
I was going to upload a picture, but for whatever reason, cannot even save one to my computer... so, here's a link instead (lots of pictures there)....
https://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=187045654704578&ref=ts
Anyways... bye.
Saturday, October 01, 2011
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On Thursday and Friday I got two new rats (each day). So, four in total. They're like between 3 - 7 weeks old, so really young. Possibly too young. I'm feeding them cat food to make up for it though.
I'll make another post, all about them.
Brooke, one of the two girls has a lump on her tummy. I'm not quite sure what it is, but I'm hoping it's just a cyst. It's likely just not a tumor, since she's so young. I didn't notice until after I bought her, but even if I had noticed before I bought her, I'd have probably still bought her.
Johnny went with me both times to buy them all. He actually paid for one of the second two. And he named Brooke.
On the way back from getting them, he said when we're older, I should get my tubes tied, and we can just have a bunch of pets instead. I'm totally down for that. But I'd feel bad for my mom, because she loves kids and I'm her only child. XD
I'm hoping to get her into the vet on Friday.
Johnny had also recently taken his brothers hamster into his room, because no one else ever paid attention to it at all. But, when he got back home from being at a friends house and mine today, he discovered the hamster was missing. But he has no idea how it got out of it's cage. It's really sad. Johnny has 3 cats, so he thinks it's likely dead. But I like to have at least a little hope that she's still alive somewhere in their house..
I feel really bad for him. He really liked the hamster and tried to hard to become friends with it.. I hope he finds it. ): If not, I want to see if Johnny will at some point get a new hamster. He was really good with the hamster.
I'm always tired, which effects my school work. I have a LOT to do tomorrow, along with seeing Johnny for a bit. And I have a Physics test on Monday. I may fail.
Anways, in general life is pretty good I guess. School sucks for the most part. If it weren't for school, and Johnny's hamster wasn't missing, life would be pretty amazing right now.
I'll make another post, all about them.
Brooke, one of the two girls has a lump on her tummy. I'm not quite sure what it is, but I'm hoping it's just a cyst. It's likely just not a tumor, since she's so young. I didn't notice until after I bought her, but even if I had noticed before I bought her, I'd have probably still bought her.
Johnny went with me both times to buy them all. He actually paid for one of the second two. And he named Brooke.
On the way back from getting them, he said when we're older, I should get my tubes tied, and we can just have a bunch of pets instead. I'm totally down for that. But I'd feel bad for my mom, because she loves kids and I'm her only child. XD
I'm hoping to get her into the vet on Friday.
Johnny had also recently taken his brothers hamster into his room, because no one else ever paid attention to it at all. But, when he got back home from being at a friends house and mine today, he discovered the hamster was missing. But he has no idea how it got out of it's cage. It's really sad. Johnny has 3 cats, so he thinks it's likely dead. But I like to have at least a little hope that she's still alive somewhere in their house..
I feel really bad for him. He really liked the hamster and tried to hard to become friends with it.. I hope he finds it. ): If not, I want to see if Johnny will at some point get a new hamster. He was really good with the hamster.
I'm always tired, which effects my school work. I have a LOT to do tomorrow, along with seeing Johnny for a bit. And I have a Physics test on Monday. I may fail.
Anways, in general life is pretty good I guess. School sucks for the most part. If it weren't for school, and Johnny's hamster wasn't missing, life would be pretty amazing right now.
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
I haven't posted in forever...
'Here's the last little while of my life in point form:
- School started Sept. 6th.
- Sarah (Dani, the bitch I hate) was in my sociology class, but switched out, but also switched into my english class. >:(
- Because of school, I don't get to see Johnny like 4 or 5 days a week anymore. ):
- Yesterday he was over for a few hours, and like 10 minutes before he had to go, I started crying because I miss him. XD
- My rat Philis is sick. ): But she has medicine, so she should get better hopefully soon.
- First semester I have Adv. English 12, Sociology, Physics 11, and a prep.
- Second semester I have Math 12, Agrifoods, Adv. Biology 12, and Physics 12.
- In November, my english class is going to see a Jungle Book play at an acting theater, not a movie.
- I am always tired from school.
- Philis has been keeping me up the last three nights in a row, so I'm even more tired.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
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I just got home from Johnny's today after being with him for three nights. I kind of wanted to come home, but only because I missed my cats and rats. I could have spent another night, but both my mother and Johnny worked tomorrow, so it was a lot easier to just come home today.
When I was last home, I tried making a hammock for the girl rats, which they have not used. Then, I had to take the wooden shelves out of the boys cage, because wood absorbs pee... so I had given them other things to hopefully help them with having fun and playing. I even gave them a wheel. They sleep under the wheel, and pee inside of it. So tomorrow, I am going around the house and finding a bunch of new things for both rat cages.
I bathed my cat Care today, to try to get rid of fleas. Which is weird, because my cats are indoor cats, and wear flea collars... but the collars clearly aren't working. And the shampoo wasn't working too well either. Maybe on the weekend I will get my mother to help with bathing the cats.
I think I go back to school on the 6th. I'm really dreading it, because I don't want to be near Sarah, who has recently been coming up in my suggested friends on Facebook a lot. Shouldn't they not come up if their blocked? I'm pretty sure I blocked her....
Whenever I see something on my newsfeed including her, I have to delete the entire thing or it will bother me. I hope she isn't in any of my classes....
Going back to school will also suck because I will have to cut back from seeing Johnny like 5 days of the week, to well, not near as much. ): It's going to be hard to get used to.
Johnny said he misses coming over here for the night, so I think maybe he will now be coming over here more often, at least a little more. And probably even more when school starts, because it would be easier that way.
I have to go get some school supplies this weekend.
When I was last home, I tried making a hammock for the girl rats, which they have not used. Then, I had to take the wooden shelves out of the boys cage, because wood absorbs pee... so I had given them other things to hopefully help them with having fun and playing. I even gave them a wheel. They sleep under the wheel, and pee inside of it. So tomorrow, I am going around the house and finding a bunch of new things for both rat cages.
I bathed my cat Care today, to try to get rid of fleas. Which is weird, because my cats are indoor cats, and wear flea collars... but the collars clearly aren't working. And the shampoo wasn't working too well either. Maybe on the weekend I will get my mother to help with bathing the cats.
I think I go back to school on the 6th. I'm really dreading it, because I don't want to be near Sarah, who has recently been coming up in my suggested friends on Facebook a lot. Shouldn't they not come up if their blocked? I'm pretty sure I blocked her....
Whenever I see something on my newsfeed including her, I have to delete the entire thing or it will bother me. I hope she isn't in any of my classes....
Going back to school will also suck because I will have to cut back from seeing Johnny like 5 days of the week, to well, not near as much. ): It's going to be hard to get used to.
Johnny said he misses coming over here for the night, so I think maybe he will now be coming over here more often, at least a little more. And probably even more when school starts, because it would be easier that way.
I have to go get some school supplies this weekend.
Friday, August 19, 2011
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I'm really bored. I just got home from my cousin's house from staying there last night to see their new kitten. Since I had been at Johnny's for four night's before that, I brought my rat Harriet with me, since I hadn't seen her in 5 days. I hadn't seen any of the rats or cats in 5 days, but I could only take one, and Harriet is the most social.
Johnny's birthday was Wednesday. His friend Ben came over and we just played Super Mario for most of the day.
He had been going out of his way to hide his texts the last few days, and seemed more distant, so eventually I just asked why. I had been planning on taking his cell phone in the middle of the night and going to the washroom to read his texts...even though I don't know how to use a cellphone. I didn't want to sneak around like that, but I of course jump to the worst and assumed he was either going to break up with me or was going to cheat on me. I knew he was texting a girl, that I'm pretty sure likes him, named Victoria. But, when I asked him, he said nothing was wrong, and asked if I wanted to read his texts. XD After that I felt like nothing was wrong. I know I worry too much, but I'm still going to.
The last two times I've been home after being at Johnny's I've been more bored than usual, becuase I'm used to being with him, so when I'm here, I don't know what to do. It's going to suck going back to school....
Especially because I can't switch schools because of the Europe trip. Which means I have to go to the same school as Dani for the next year. I honestly don't know if I'll be able to handle it. It's really stressing me out.
I don't really know what else to talk about. There's a lot I could say, but most isn't really important... so I wont bother.
Johnny's birthday was Wednesday. His friend Ben came over and we just played Super Mario for most of the day.
He had been going out of his way to hide his texts the last few days, and seemed more distant, so eventually I just asked why. I had been planning on taking his cell phone in the middle of the night and going to the washroom to read his texts...even though I don't know how to use a cellphone. I didn't want to sneak around like that, but I of course jump to the worst and assumed he was either going to break up with me or was going to cheat on me. I knew he was texting a girl, that I'm pretty sure likes him, named Victoria. But, when I asked him, he said nothing was wrong, and asked if I wanted to read his texts. XD After that I felt like nothing was wrong. I know I worry too much, but I'm still going to.
The last two times I've been home after being at Johnny's I've been more bored than usual, becuase I'm used to being with him, so when I'm here, I don't know what to do. It's going to suck going back to school....
Especially because I can't switch schools because of the Europe trip. Which means I have to go to the same school as Dani for the next year. I honestly don't know if I'll be able to handle it. It's really stressing me out.
I don't really know what else to talk about. There's a lot I could say, but most isn't really important... so I wont bother.
Tuesday, August 09, 2011
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Today's my birthday. And my mother's birthday.
But, we aren't celebrating.
Last night Rodney, my mother's now ex-boyfriend, was drunk like usual, and got mad over the electricity, and the animals, which he has nothing to do with, but still hates. He was going around and turning on every electrical device in the house, because he was mad about the power bill....which makes no sense, he's only making it worse. And he'll be alone to pay for it.
Anyways, after that, he said my mother had to get out of "his house." Though they both pay for it, it's in both names. He has control issues. Of course we already knew we were leaving. After that, he lost the chord to his camera, and spent like an hour yelling at my mother that she took it, which she obviously wouldn't do; that's just stupid. And telling her to find it, because he got drunk and lost it. A while later, he shut off all of the power in the house. My mother got him to turn it back on "but only for half an hour" as he said, though it was really only like 10 minutes. My mother tried calling the cops during this time, to have him escorted out of here, but he shut the power off before she talked to an officer. So, she put me and all of the cats in my room, and I locked the door while she went to the neighbors and called the cops again from there.
He turned the power back on once he found out the cops were coming, and then left for the night with a friend. If he had have come back last night again, he'd have gone to jail.
But he was allowed back this morning, and of course came back.
And he has more alcohol to just get mad again tonight.
But my mother found a place to stay with a friend for a month until we find a place to live on our own. And we're going to be packing the next few days and probably be finished moving by Saturday/Sunday.
Johnny's coming over later to take me to go get boxes to use to pack, because Rodney took the keys to the truck, so we can't use it.
We also need to find someone with a truck that we can use on the weekend to move everything.
We're going to probably be calling the cops again to come by some time to "keep the peace" as we try to move and decide what belongs to who.
He's just really childish and pathetic.
I took my birthday information off facebook so I wouldn't get a bunch of people saying happy birthday, since I spent today finding a place to live, and packing. It hardly feels like my birthday at all.
But, we aren't celebrating.
Last night Rodney, my mother's now ex-boyfriend, was drunk like usual, and got mad over the electricity, and the animals, which he has nothing to do with, but still hates. He was going around and turning on every electrical device in the house, because he was mad about the power bill....which makes no sense, he's only making it worse. And he'll be alone to pay for it.
Anyways, after that, he said my mother had to get out of "his house." Though they both pay for it, it's in both names. He has control issues. Of course we already knew we were leaving. After that, he lost the chord to his camera, and spent like an hour yelling at my mother that she took it, which she obviously wouldn't do; that's just stupid. And telling her to find it, because he got drunk and lost it. A while later, he shut off all of the power in the house. My mother got him to turn it back on "but only for half an hour" as he said, though it was really only like 10 minutes. My mother tried calling the cops during this time, to have him escorted out of here, but he shut the power off before she talked to an officer. So, she put me and all of the cats in my room, and I locked the door while she went to the neighbors and called the cops again from there.
He turned the power back on once he found out the cops were coming, and then left for the night with a friend. If he had have come back last night again, he'd have gone to jail.
But he was allowed back this morning, and of course came back.
And he has more alcohol to just get mad again tonight.
But my mother found a place to stay with a friend for a month until we find a place to live on our own. And we're going to be packing the next few days and probably be finished moving by Saturday/Sunday.
Johnny's coming over later to take me to go get boxes to use to pack, because Rodney took the keys to the truck, so we can't use it.
We also need to find someone with a truck that we can use on the weekend to move everything.
We're going to probably be calling the cops again to come by some time to "keep the peace" as we try to move and decide what belongs to who.
He's just really childish and pathetic.
I took my birthday information off facebook so I wouldn't get a bunch of people saying happy birthday, since I spent today finding a place to live, and packing. It hardly feels like my birthday at all.
Friday, August 05, 2011
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I just got home from Johnny's about an hour ago. Originally I was supposed to come home yesterday, but when we came here, my mom said she was having guests over, and didn't want me here. She was going to call my aunt to see if I could go there, but I didn't want to, so I went back to Johnny's for another night. I shouldn't have really been there in the first place though, because my mother and her boyfriend were out of town for Monday and Tuesday, and wanted me to stay home to watch the house. But, on Monday night, I found four earwigs in my bed, and I'm terrified of them, so I left my room, attempted to pull an all-nighter in the living room, but fell asleep under a damp towel from 7am - 10 am. I was under a damp towel because I didn't trust the blanket in my room, and most of the other blankets in the house are made up of frabics that for whatever reason really bother me. They make me feel sick and stuff. XD Johnny was going to pick me up around 7am, but luckily he slept in, because I had fallen asleep. I tried calling around 11 - 11:30, and he never answered, but a few minutes later he called back and said he was on his way then. So we went to his house and I messaged my mother saying where I was. But she never got the message, so my cousin messaged Johnny Tuesday night asking where I was, so I went on Facebook and messaged my mother again. She wasn't mad that I left when I shouldn't have, because of the earwigs. Which was good.
Johnny and I are supposed to be hanging out again on Tuesday, because that's my birthday and I wanted to hang out with him.
And then I go back to school in about a month....I really don't want to. Because it will mean less Johnny time, and my sleeping habits have been messed up again for a few months, so I'll be exhausted in school. They started in June, a while before school ended.
I think Johnny had said he'd take me school supply shopping, but he probably forgot, it was quickly said in passing in June. I like school supply shopping, but I hate school.
Johnny was talking about how whenever his parents moved to another province, he might move up there too. He wants to I think. At first I was scared, because it's another province, and we'd be far away. But, he said if he did move, he'd want me to go with him. Which, I'd definately do. Even though I'm young. It's legal. I'd just have to come back and visit my mother a lot or she'd go insane. And he'd only move there for a few years and then come back here. I wouldn't decide to live there, I'm happy here, but if he were going there, I'd want to go just to be with him.
I was possibly going to be babysitting for my father tonight, watching Oliver. But luckily I ended up not having to. I'd like to see Oliver, but I don't like sleeping in that house at all. Johnny said I should sleep in Oliver's room with him, but Oliver doesn't sleep with a night light, and I do. So that wouldn't work out right.
Anyways, I'm going to stop talking now...
Johnny and I are supposed to be hanging out again on Tuesday, because that's my birthday and I wanted to hang out with him.
And then I go back to school in about a month....I really don't want to. Because it will mean less Johnny time, and my sleeping habits have been messed up again for a few months, so I'll be exhausted in school. They started in June, a while before school ended.
I think Johnny had said he'd take me school supply shopping, but he probably forgot, it was quickly said in passing in June. I like school supply shopping, but I hate school.
Johnny was talking about how whenever his parents moved to another province, he might move up there too. He wants to I think. At first I was scared, because it's another province, and we'd be far away. But, he said if he did move, he'd want me to go with him. Which, I'd definately do. Even though I'm young. It's legal. I'd just have to come back and visit my mother a lot or she'd go insane. And he'd only move there for a few years and then come back here. I wouldn't decide to live there, I'm happy here, but if he were going there, I'd want to go just to be with him.
I was possibly going to be babysitting for my father tonight, watching Oliver. But luckily I ended up not having to. I'd like to see Oliver, but I don't like sleeping in that house at all. Johnny said I should sleep in Oliver's room with him, but Oliver doesn't sleep with a night light, and I do. So that wouldn't work out right.
Anyways, I'm going to stop talking now...
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