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Friday, February 17, 2012

Johhny's been really great this week!

He's been really sweet, and he got me that necklace for Valentine's Day, and drove me in to get Valentine.
And last night, he just got even better!
This is what I posted on Tumblr about it, I don't want to re-write.. :P

When we went to the pet store earlier this week to get me another female rat (Valentine, because that’s when I got her), we saw two beautiful rats (the ones in the picture). Of course, I loved them and wanted one, but they’re boys, and I was getting a girl!
We both really liked them, and I kept talking about how they’d end up sold as snake food, and we were both sad of course. (This is why I rarely go to pet stores anymore).
Last night, my mom called the pet store, to see if they had any good rat food that what cheaper than what we’re buying now, which they did. And since we’re now saving $120 on rat food every month and a half, I asked if we could get one of the two grey rats, and she agreed. So, one of the rats was put on hold for us to pick up today, and the girl said the other was already put on hold by somebody. So I was really glad one was left!
I called my boyfriend and told him I was getting one, and he seemed really happy for me…
Later that night he told me he was the one who reserved the other rat. He was going to get me it as a surprise, but I had already reserved the other. :P 
So, since the one that was reserved for him has been caged alone (apparently he’s aggressive with other rats), he decided to keep that one himself! So now we have both of those pretty rats! 
It was such an amazing coincidence! It absolutely made my week!
Their names are Orville and Elliot. Orville is his, with standard ears. Elliot, who is mine, is dumbo. 
Even though he’s supposed to be aggressive, Orville seems to get along great with Elliot, so they will have lots of play dates! Or maybe he’ll even get a friend of his own… ;)
(Please ignore how bad I look in this photo...) The one I'm holding is mine, Elliot. And Johnny is holding his, Orville. They're about 4 months old, I'd say.
P.S. I can't get any more rats.. haha.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Valentine's Day

I told him not to get my anything, but this is what Johnny got me for Valentine's Day:
The J and K are the first letter of both of our first names...
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This is from Tumblr, but no one ever asks, so I'm just answering them here.
Purple:
1. It's big.
2. It has a big closet.
3. It's beige.
4. It has a big window.
5. It's always way too hot.
6. It normally has 25 rats in it.
7. It currently only has 17. (The others are in the living room).
8. It isn't organized.
9. It was sweeped today.
10. It's the only room with light wood floors, not dark.

Blue:
1. I live with my mother.
2. I am her only child.
3. My father has another child.
4. My little brother is 7.
5. My grandmother lives next door to my father.
6. I only have one grandparent left.
7. One of my cousins is one of my best friend.
8. Most everyone in my family plays guitar.
9. Uhm, we're of scottish decent.

Green:
1. I'm the fattest I've ever been. About 125 pounds.
2. I'm 5'3".
3. I'm really pale.
4. I have light brown hair.
5. I am not missing any toes or fingers.
6. I have a purple, hard to see, birthmark on my arm.
7. I'm left handed.
8. I have small feet.

Yellow:
1. I was born 5 weeks early.
2. I was forced to live with my father, but always wanted to live with my mother.
3. I hated my father and his girlfriend.
4. I wasn't treated well by my guardians.
5. My (now ex)step mother threatened to kill me.
6. I was forced to take pills when I was sick, even though pills make me vomit.
7. I hated my childhood.

Orange:
1. It's small.
2. It has two churches.
3. It has three main roads.
4. There is a river running through the center.
5. It's in the country.
6. There are a lot of farms on it.

Red:
1. One is my boyfriend.
2. The other is my cousin.
3. One is 19.
4. The other is 16.
5. They both like rats because of me!

Pink:
1. My mother gets mad easily.
2. My father is an asshole.
3. My mother is stubborn.
4. My father thinks he is always right.

White:
1. I'm shy.
2. If you deserve it, I'll be a bitch.
3. I'm not always looking for attention.

Grey:
1. Rats are cute.
2. So is my boyfriend.

Black:
1. His birthday is August 17th.

Monday, February 13, 2012

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On the weekend I blocked all of my "friends" on Facebook, trying to get them out of my life. By friends I mean Vicki, Amy, and Brandon. I blocked Jenna about a month ago.
They're all friends with Sarah, and they aren't stupid, they should know she had to fuck up really badly to make me go from being her best friend to hating her guts. But, no. None of them asked (showing that they don't care), and they still think she's some wonderful person (showing they're ignorant and are okay with people being horrible).
I'm just so sick of them. They're so fake and stupid, oblivious and ignorant. And immature.
I don't want them anymore. I have Johnny, and my cousin Ali, and my rats. And I'm so much happier with just them. I don't need anyone else. Well, there's this guy I've been talking to online for maybe a week now, named Scott (I think...) and he's pretty cool and down to earth (and hasn't asked for nudes). Seriously, 99% of people on the internet are prepubescent boys looking for a girl trashy enough to send him pictures so he can jerk off alone in his room.
Anyways, tomorrow is Valentine's Day. (: And for the first time ever, I'm celebrating with just a boy (I give out Valentine's every year, childishly) By celebrating I mean I'm hanging out with Johnny. We have to go to town to pick something up, and he said we might go to Subway, but that's not for sure. I told him not to worry about getting me anything or taking me anywhere, because I'm fine just hanging out.
We had a hypnotist come to our school today, like every year, to do a show with some of the grade 12's being hypnotized. It was pretty funny. I've seen all of the acts for the last 6 years straight, but it's still funny to watch people get up there and act like fools and say stupid stuff. :P

Monday, February 06, 2012

Science Fair

For this years science fair, because I'm taking Advanced Biology, it has to be an experiment, so I'm testing whether male or female rats are smarter, by teaching my rats tricks, and seeing whether males or females catch on faster! And probably use a maze too at some point. I'm pretty excited. And in doing so, I'm getting one more female rat, so I will have 4 girls I want to use and 4 boys. But I may use more of mine too. Oh, and this will bring my total to 25, which is great, because I like numbers ending in 5 or 0 most. (:
Johnny ended up not coming over Sunday night, because his mom worked on Monday morning, so instead, he's coming over tomorrow and Wednesday night! (:
Then I'm going to my fathers on Thursday night to hangout with Oliver. His great grandmother, on his mom's side passed away last week.
And, I think of Friday, I will be at my cousins for the night, and we will be going to Chapters on Saturday. We've been trying to go since Christmas, but haven't been able to yet, because something always gets in the way.

Sunday, February 05, 2012

Johnny

I was thinking, just now.
When I talk about Johnny on here, a lot of it is complaining. And that probably makes him seem like a really bad guy sometimes. But honestly, I'm a complainer. I can sit there, for an hour and just complain the whole time. I don't talk about things that are good and make me happy, near as much as I complain. Especially if I'm mad or upset, or even sick. All I will do is complain.
I try to write letters to Johnny in school, 95% of the letter is me complaining about class, wanting to go home, counting down the minutes until class is over, one by one, complaining that I'm tired, bored, hungry, or thirsty, and complaining about people I don't like. Other than that, I don't really write anything.
And now I feel bad, because I probably make Johnny out to seem a lot worse than he is. He really isn't that bad. I was bored this weekend, and watched some Tyra and Dr. Phil episodes about abusive relationships, and honestly, mine isn't anything like that, so it really can't be that bad.
He never hits me, or seriously calls me bad names. The worst insult he says to me, is saying I'm acting like his friends really bitchy girlfriend, but he never calls me a bitch, he just says I'm acting like a certain bitchy girl. Which is a lot more indirect, and I understand, that I am acting like her. Sometimes I get mad, and get cranky, but who doesn't? Other than like Nuns and Monks. (I just had to google "Who are the people in the mountains who pray" to remember the word monk...)
Anyways. Johnny is actually a great guy. And I am in a really great mood  now, so maybe this will be happier than normal, but still, just dull it down a little.
He's really sweet, and for the most part, if I'm upset, he's there for me. I've called him at 4 am before, because I was upset over my rat being sick, or from a bad dream about a dog getting mad. And he always stays there listening to me and talking to me to make me feel better. Yes, he is half asleep, but at least he's willing to stay up, when he really just wants to sleep.
He jokes around with me a lot, and likes having fun. He'll cuddle with me quite a bit, and teases me when I want kisses by turning around and stuff, just to make me fight for it.
He gave me his old laptop when he got a new one because mine broke.
He'll surprise me by showing up at my house randomly for a surprise visit. They're usually only between 1 and 10 minutes as he's dropping friends off or picking them up. But still, it's him going out of his way to come over and give me a hug and kiss, and tell me he loves me, when he doesn't have to, and when it could be easier not to.
And like half an hour ago, I was feeling upset, and I felt ugly and like he could do so much better than me. So I decided to text him and talk to him about it. So I brought up our conversation and opened up a new text thing to write a message, and after typing the first letter, I got the sound letting me know I got a text from him. So I waited for it to show up, and it simply said "I love you!" And we hadn't been talking for a while, and he texted me, just when I needed to talk to him and be reassured, and it made me really happy, and instantly feel better.
So, I know I probably complain about him a lot on here, but that's just because I'm really awkward when it comes to happy stuff and talking about it. It's easier for me to complain. But, really, he isn't that bad, at all. He's actually really great, and helpful, and there for me a lot. He isn't perfect, but no one is. And for me, he's close enough.
So, yeah...

Thursday, February 02, 2012

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My cat Jake is in heat. And because of it, she's been weird and clingy.
I hardly slept at all last night because of her. She was either on my pillow, rubbing her cold wet nose on my eyelid, or she was running around, meowing, and growling at every sound and movement. Or she was trying to get under my blankets. It was so annoying. At first I was happy she wanted to cuddle, but that soon changed.
Johnny and I had a big argument last night. I don't really want to talk about it though. He's coming over tonight though, hopefully for the night. And we're hanging out Saturday and Sunday night too.
I'm taking Bert, my guinea pig, and Brooke, my rat, to the vet today. Bert needs his toenails cut, BADLY. My mother is so neglectful. I've been trying to get her to make him an appointment, since before summer... his toenails are so long. It's going to be embarassing going there, with his toenails so long. Brooke's been sick for months too, and has had a head tilt for a few months. My mother does absolutely nothing to take care of animals.
I've been gaining a lot of weight recently too, and I hate it. I keep trying to cut back, but I never do.

Wednesday, February 01, 2012

MOVED

I moved on Friday. I'm not far from the old place, but it's far enough away from Rodney. It's an apartment building, which isn't ideal. Too close to like 4 other families... but, it's away from Rodney, so it's pretty great. I still haven't really unpacked.
4 of 6 of my cats have got under my bed since moving... When I was setting my bed down to set it up, Fat got stuck under it, for five hours... until my mom and I got desperate, and checked under the bed, only to be surprised we actually found him. When we were getting him out, Jake went under. An hour later I heard her growling, and we got her out. Jon is small enough to go under and out as she pleases. Aaron can get under, but she can't get out....
Where it's exam week, and we've had two snow days, tomorrow when I am home I will work on organizing my room.
I'm at Johnny's right now. I spent the night here last night. I had a dream, where I went to a SPCA, and I was going to adopt a whale, but it was too expensive, so I got a pink puppy instead. Hahaha. (: I want a pink puppy now.
I'm finished with my exams. I did good on math and english, of course. But, like expected, I failed Physics, for sure! Oh well.
Next semester, starting Friday, I have Math 12, Agrifoods 11, Adv. Bio 12, and Sociology 12.

Friday, January 06, 2012

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I haven't posted in a while.
Today, Johnny and I went at got two baby rats. A siamese and a hooded (fawn), both girls. They're so small, and still shy, but that's understandable. And in maybe two months, the guy should have some blue's and hairless ready, which I want... XD
We had quite a bit of fun. But, like we've been doing quite a bit recently, we've been talking about Sarah (the girl he cheated on me with). And I said, for the first time ever, that he had treated me like shit for most of out relationship.
He is a lot better, and nicer now. He's so much different, and treats me better, and actually cares, I think. But this stuff still bothers me, and I still don't trust him.
I still think of what they did, and bring it up.
I read his facebook messages, text messages, saved conversations on msn, and the saved message between them on msn, I emailed to myself and have access to whenever I want now...
I know it's horrible for me to do, but what he did to cause me to be like this is horrible too.
I just wish there was a way for him to make it up to me for what he did, but there's nothing he could do to make it up to me. I can't forgive him, and I shouldn't. But I still want to be with him.
I don't really know what to write about though.. I just want to talk to someone, mainly him, or something...
I guess I'll go now...