Monday, February 28, 2011

Day Twenty-four, Challenge Three

24: How attractive do you consider yourself?
Well, I used to completely hate my appearence, but I don't as much now. I'm still not completely happy with it, but I don't hate it as much.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Day Twenty-two and Twenty-three, Challenge Three

22: What subject did / do you exceed in / at school?
23: Are you a fan of art? If so, who is your favorite artist? What artistic movement do you prefer?

22: Well, I do best in History, preferably ancient, and I did really good in art class last year. I'm good with most english too.

23: I do like art, but I don't really know too much about it, except what I learned in Art 10. And, I don't really have a favourite artist. There are a few from class last year that I liked, but I can't remember their names. I like Alex Pardee's work. He's not from the past though. And, I don't know which movement I liked most, and if I did, I probably wouldn't know what it was called.
Here's one of Alex Pardee's works:


Today, I went to Dollarama with my mom, because I was bored and wanted to buy some cool little trinkets and stuff. So, I went, and while there, I ended up buying a lot more than I had planned to, but I was also looking at all the cool party stuff (yes, I'm childish) and I remembered how Johnny talks about how he's never invited to his friends parties, and how like several months ago, I half jokingly told him I'd throw a party, and invite him, so I got some party stuff, and I'm throwing him a party. I don't know if I'll invite just him or a few other friends too. I'd be more comfortable with just him, and we'd have fun alone, or at least I would (XD) With friends, he;d get to see friends he hasn't seen in a while, but none of us would be as comfortable I think. So, I think it will just be he and I. Or maybe friends over until 9 or so, and then they'd all leave, and we'd continue the party on our own. So it's be a bit of both, but I'd have to see which friends would be able to work with that schedual. This wont be his usual type of party, ít's more of a ten year olds birthday party, and he's 18, but it'll be an awesome party anyways! And whether he wants to or not, he's coming. And there will be music. They type you can dance to. And Hilary Duff. It will be on a night my mom is working, so it's just us here.
This is the stuff I got for it so far:
Glow sticks, wrist size and necklace size
Bunny masks
Treasure bags
and balloons

And we'll have party games too, like little kid ones, but maybe with more of a mature theme, so he's not completely bored.
Like, instead of pin the tale on the donkey, if I can get big printouts somewhere, pin the guitar on the guitarist, or the Johnny if I can get one of him, because he plays guitar! XD And a treasure hunt, where he has to go around from clue to clue, and every few clues there'd be a prize, like a guitar pick, or something like that, until he got to the last prize, which would be something better than a guitar pick, but I don't know what exactly it would be.
I also don't really know if I should tell him in advanced about this party, or let him find out when he gets here.. XD Anyone have any ideas on what to do about that?
I have no idea when this party will be, hopefully within a month or so.
If he's not busy it could be as soon as March 14th or 15th, since it's March Break then, so I don't have to worry about school. If not, the next available time is April 1st or 2nd. And I'd rather is sooner than later.

It's a few hours later now... I messaged one of my friends on Facebook, and she said she'd most likely be able to go, so, now I just have to wait for one other friend to come on, so I can ask her. And get the one I already talked to to ask one of her friends, and then that would be five people total, I might see about one or two more, but I don't want it to be too many people, really, and I want it to be people who are comfortable around eachother a lot more than others.
So now, if others do come, all I really need to worry about is the transition from several people, to just Johnny and I..
I have several things planned for when other people are there, and only one for just Johnny; a scavenger hunt. I'm hoping to have it on the 18th or 19th. So, whenever I talk to him next (he hasn't been on MSN yet today...) I will ask him if he's busy then, and then invite him over for the night, so I can guarantee the date, and then tell others, and get as many of the close friends over as possible, and then, well, yeah.
I would invite my cousin over too, but I don't think she could get a drive back home around 9 or 10... And, I want everyone but Johnny gone by 10 at the latest.
This will take a lot of planning.. especially because I don't want Johnny knowing yet, or maybe not even until he gets here..

Friday, February 25, 2011

Day Twenty-one, Challenge Three

21: Do you want children? Why or why not?

I don't know if I do. Like, maybe I'd like to, a lot of people seem to like it.. And, I'd try to be a good parent, of course. But, I want to travel, and having a kid would make that hard, and also, what if I wasn't a good parent. Then that would suck.
So, I don't know.
And, if I had a child, I'd want it raised a certain way, which could be very difficult, when raising a child with someone else.

Thursday, February 24, 2011


Today hasn't really been a good day. I've had worse of course, but since lunch, I've been either upset, frustrated, annoyed, or pissed off. Well, I've been happy for some of it, but for the most part, I haven't been, or maybe I have, but the others are more overwhelming, and I feel them greater, so it seems like more time.
At lunch I had to write a math test I missed on Tuesday. In class, I'm good at math, but on all of the work that's been marked so far this year, I've really sucked. It's the same as work in class, I just can't do it. So, I failed another test. I didn't get the mark back yet, but I know I did. Then, right after lunch I had chemistry, where I noticed one of the charms from my bracelet was missing, which really upset me, so Chemistry class sucked. After Chemistry, I did find the charm, which was good, and then we had yoga, which was fine. And then, I got to my fathers (I came to his house for a few hours today, I'm getting picked up at 8:30) and as soon as I walked in the door, my grandmother said she needed help with her computer. Every single time I come over she needs help with it. And, she never gets anyone else to help, just me. I love her, but it gets annoying to constantly fix her computer whenever I'm here. My father asked about Johnny and I, and I just kind of mumbled responces. He probably thinks we're completely broken up, but oh well, it's none of his business, really. He also asked if I'm playing playing guitar. For the last year, I've said no, and he still continues to ask. He wants me to play. I don't want to play, and him wanting me to play makes me want to play even less. I have reasons for not playing, and I don't plan on playing anytime soon.
And then, the biggest thing to make me mad. And, I know it's really childish, but it makes me soo mad. Yesterday, I made an album on Facebook of Johnny and I, of goldfish and cats, the animals we "are," so I did that, and I was really happy with it, because it was something that was just of him and I, and it was special, and then today one of my other friends made one of her and another friend. And, I already have problems with not being different, if one of my friends does something, they all do it, and I hate when people copy me, which made me mad, but then, it also makes the one of Johnny and I less special. So, of course, it made me really pissed off. She tagged me in one photo, and told me about it on my wall, I removed the post, and untagged myself. I don't want anything to do with that album, or friend right now. I honestly don't think I'll talk to that friend tomorrow in school, because of it. XD Which I know is childish, but it really pisses me off, and I can't control it. She said in the wall post "(If you don't mind)" at the bottom of the post; I could have told her I do, but I know it;s childish, and Johnny likes the photo he was tagged in in it, so I don't want to cause any issues and make her delete it, though if I could, I'd delete it. I have to stop thinking about this.. I cry when I'm mad, and I'm in my fathers kitchen...
I helped my brother with his math homework today! He's not very good at math.. I have a big test tomorrow in Global History, but I'll study for it later. Maybe tomorrow morning, since I don't want to be near that friend, so I'll be alone. So, that's a good idea. And I have to make sure not to sit with her on the bus, and to not walk with her, but our lockers are side by side, which may be an issue, but oh well, she's going to have to find out I'm mad at some point. I said I was going to stop talking about this, and three sentences later, I'm back on the subject...
Í'm just not in a good mood tonight..

Day Twenty, Challenge Three

20: Would you consider yourself an optimist or a realist? Why?
I'm an optimist, realist, and pessimist. It changes a lot, sometimes with my moods, sometimes just when I feel I need to.
Currently, I'm...pessimistic, while trying to be realistic.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Day Nineteen, Challenge Three.

19: What is your favorite film? Why is it so important to you?
I don't really have a favourite, actually... None that are important. A film is a movie, right? :S
I like the Land Before Time movies a lot, but they're not important for any specific reason, I've just always loved them.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011


I fonally got contacts today. I had originally supposed to have got them in September, but my mom ended up having to reschedual the appointment, and then forgot to. And, finally last week she got me another appointment this week, which she also almost forgot about. Her memory is worse than mine! Anyways, she got me up at 7:00 to get ready for school, and then I decided to actually have breakfast this morning, because I was starving. I ended up scraping so much butter off the toast because she put too much on. And, then when I finished, I remembered that my eye appointment was sometime soon, and then that it was the 22nd. Then I had to figure out when that was, which ended up being today. Since the appointment was at 12:00, I didn't bother going to school for the morning classes. I went back to bed then and slept until 11:00, and had several weird dreams. After that, I got up, had lunch, and then went to the appointment. It took me about 30 minutes to get the fitting, and then get the contact in, out, and then back in, but I was able to. After that, my mom asked if it was even worth it to drive me to school afterwards, and I said no, since I'd only be there for a class and a half. So, I stayed home, and I read for a bit, and then started talking to Johnny, while still reading. I'm on page 100/1269 now.. XD This will be hard. But I must do it! The book is getting a lot more interesting now, so that's really good.
Johnny's quitting smoking, so I don't know if we'll hang out again for a while, like a week or so, because he doesn't want to be around me when he's cranky. Which, is understandable.
I've been sneezing a lot recently. I don't really know why, it's like I'm having an allergic reaction, but I don't know what to. I've been petting my cats a lot more recently, and they're starting to shed, so that could be it... I have 6 cats, and I'm allergic to fur. XD
There are so many viruses or whatever going around Facebook right now, it's so annoying. I keep getting messages from people to go to certain places.
Even though I had 11 hours of sleep in total last night, I've still been quite tired all day. I'm not looking forward to school, especially because I'm pretty sure I have a test in either Math or Chemistry. I have no idea which it's in though..
I'm going to go now, since I keep forgetting I'm in the middle of writing a post, and I don't really have much else to say.. XD

Day Eighteen, Challenge Three

18: If you could meet anyone, living or dead, who would it be? What would you say to them or ask them?
It would probably be someone like Nicholas Flamel, John Dee, Socrates, Aristotle, Plato, or someone like that. And, I wouldn't really say much, or ask them much, I'd just let them say whatever they wanted to say and listen in awe. XD

Monday, February 21, 2011

Day Seventeen, Challenge Three

17: What do you want to be when you get older? Why did you choose it?
I have absolutely no idea what I want to be when I'm older. I don't even know half the stuff I want to be/do right now...

Last night (:

Last night was really good! Johnny came over around 7:00, and normally he'd have just been staying until probably 10:30, but my mother and I were talking about how I was going to be getting to school this morning, because she wouldn't be home, and I can't walk to the bus stop, because it's too cold, and the sidewalk is incredibly icy, and then Johnny offered to spend the night and drive me to school this morning.
And then my mom and her boyfriend left for the night, and so unlike when they're here, Johnny and I had the whole place to ourselves, which is better than pretty much being confined to my room.
I showed him a book I made when I was probably 7. And, even though I was reading Grade 2 level books when I was four, clearly, I really sucked at writing. XD The book is so stupid, but hilarious too. He proceeded to make fun of me for most of the night about it, in a good way. He's still bringing it up on MSN. And we watched the movie The Road. It was a good movie, but kind of scary (to me), and sad. At one point, I was making him Mr. Noodles and when I was draining the pot, I spilled all of the noodles in the sink, so I had to make him more. That's not the first time that I've done that either. It was the first time with him, but not first ever.
We were up until 1:00 talking, and then we went to sleep, because I had school today. We talked about Hilary Duff for about 7 minutes. XD
Other good things happened too, but I only got 5 hours of sleep last night, and I'm half alseep now, so I can't really think of them, nor do I feel up to trying to remember. XD But, it was a lot of fun!
Today's my friends birthday, she's 17!
Oh yeah! Last night, I showed Johnny the fancy new book I got, the Vampire Chronicles one. And he said that I had to read it by next Sunday, so this Sunday coming. He didn't say why, I think just to see if I can, so I'm determined to. It's 1269 pages, and I'm on 33 right now... It's going to be hard. I used to read 100 pages in an hour, and now I read about 30... I don't know why I'm so slow now, I took a small break, and it shortened up then, and since then, it's just gotten worse, but I have to read quickly for this book so I get it done on time!
I'm going to go read now.. XD

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Day Sixteen, Challenge Three.

16: If the world were to end tomorrow, what would you do with your remaining time on earth?
Well... I know what I'd do if it were just me dying. I'd write everyone that I care about a long letter. But, if the entire world was ending, they'd never get to read the letters... so I don't know what I'd do. I'd want to see people, like my brother, and I'd also want to see Johnny too. And my cats. But, I don't really know.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Day Fourteen and Fifteen, Challenge Three

14: Name things that you do every day.
15: Who is someone you admire. Why?
14: Hmm... on weekdays, I go to school, come home, turn on my laptop, get something to eat, go on MSN, Facebook, Minesweeper, Formspring, Hotmail, Six Billion Secrets, and Smartphowned.
On weekends, rather than go to school, it's wake up, and then same order.
Unless something else happens, like I have to do something, or someone comes over, or I go somewhere, that's pretty much all I do.

15: I don't really know who I admire. I guess people who've had hard lives, and then did something good, or helped someone, or made something good of their life, despite whatever issues they have.

Science Fair Paper

I had completely forgot about posting it on here.. XD
Anyways, this is what I wrote. It could have been done better, but I think I got a good mark on it anyways..

       In recent years, being vegetarian or vegan has been becoming more popular. More and more people are switching over to this diet, which is also often referred to as a lifestyle [1]. The main reasons for switching, or even being raised or raising your children this way, are either, for cultural or religious beliefs, for the animals, for the environment, or for health reasons.
       Some people may ask what the differences between a vegetarian and a vegan are. The difference is simple; vegetarians do not eat any meat, (pork, poultry, beef, seafood, etc.) or other products made directly from an animal, such as gelatine. Vegans, on the other hand, do not consume any animal products – no meats, no direct animal products, and no animal bi-products such as milk, eggs, and honey [2].
       Now, maybe you know someone who claims to be vegetarian, but still eats fish and/or chickens and other birds. Though they may not be vegetarian, they do have their own special titles – pescatarians and pollotarians. A pescatarians is someone who follows a vegetarian diet, but consumes fish and/or other sea foods [3]. Pollotarians also follow vegetarian diets with the exception of chickens and other birds [4].
       This project is on veganism and how the world would be affected if every human were to willingly cut all animal products from their diet and life. I will be considering factors such as land space, human health, life expectancy rates, the growing human population, the environment, third-world countries, and the animals that would no longer be needed.
       The effects of a vegan diet are very beneficial. With all of the healthy food options vegans have to choose from, it is not being healthy that is hard, but being unhealthy that can prove difficult. Being so healthy will not only prevent you from becoming ill, but it can also increase your life expectancy rate drastically. Along with great health, adopting a vegan diet can also help the environment, create more free space for more housing, other buildings and businesses, feed people in need of food, and help develope third-world countries, to list a few bonuses.
Veganism and Human Health
       Vitamins and Nutrients
Calcium – A common myth about vegans is that because they don’t consume dairy, they don’t get the required amount of calcium for their age group, whatever it may be. This, though, is far from false. Vegans are easily able to obtain just as much calcium as any other person following another diet; just like those who are lactose intolerant. Vegans can get their calcium from many sources, whether it be calcium supplements, or healthy, delicious foods such as spinach, kale, broccoli, tofu, soy milk (see page – for more on soy), and a variety of nuts [5].
Protein – “But where do you get your protein?!” This is a common question vegetarians and vegans are asked. Some people may be shocked to hear the answer. But, first of all, did you know that by eating animal proteins, in order to take care of the substances in it, such as amino acid, calcium must be drawn from the bones to help deposit the waste [6]? Now, for some healthy, vegan ways to get the protein you need – tofu, peanut butter, lentils, pinto beans, bean burritos, chilli, nuts, and seeds [7].
Vitamin B12 – Vitamin B12 can only naturally be found in meat products [8]. Though this fact may raise some alarm, there is no reason to worry, there are plenty of vegan foods that now come fortified with Vitamin B12 that are just as good as the real thing from meat. Most fortified soy milks and mock meat (meat substitutes designed to look and taste like meat) contain Vitamin B12, some containing very high amounts [9].
Vitamin D – Though there are not as many vegan sources than non-vegan sources of Vitamin D, it is still able to be acquired. There are daily Vitamin D supplements you can take. The sun is another natural source of Vitamin D. Some vegan foods containing Vitamin D are certain mushrooms, fortified types of milk, and even some orange juices. Contrary to the Dairy Council, milk (dairy or even soy) milk is not “Liquid Sunshine.” In order to obtain the same amount of Vitamin D you would get out in the sun for 20 minutes, you would have to drink about 12 gallons of milk.
       Note: Though these are not all of the vitamins and nutrients, these are some of the main ones people worry about vegetarians getting enough of. Vegetarians and vegans are very able to get all of the required vitamins and nutrients by eating a wide variety of foods.

Illness and Disease
Heart Disease – The American Heart Association says heart disease is the leading cause of death in America [10]. A study conducted in the United States showed that of the 25 000 men tested the ones who consumed meat products everything day had a higher risk of heart disease than those who didn’t; they were three times as likely. A different study showed that vegetarians had a 24% lower chance of getting heart disease, and vegans had a 57% less chance. This is because vegetarians and vegan consume far less saturated fats and cholesterol, provided they eat healthy [11].
Cancer – Cancer is a pretty scary word. The majority of people have been affected by cancer in some way, whether they’ve had it, or they knew someone who has had it. If you knew of a way to lessen the chances of you or a loved one being diagnosed with cancer, would do you do it? Veganism is a great way to lessen your chances of being diagnosed with many types of cancer. The American Cancer Society says that 1/3 of all cancer cases can be blamed on poor diet [12]. The Physicians Committee for Responsible Medicine says that those who don’t eat meat “are about 40% less likely to get cancer than non-vegetarians, regardless of other risk factors such as smoking, body size, and socioeconomic status,” [13]. The scientists at Oxford University’s Cancer Epidemiology Unit say that those who remove red meat from their diet are 45% less likely to be diagnosed with cancer. And, according to the National Cancer Institute, those who don’t get enough fruits and vegetables are putting themselves at risk of developing cancer [14].
Diabetes – Did you know that vegans have a 68% less chance of becoming diabetic than non-vegetarians? Well, it’s true, according to the Adventist Health Study – 2 [15]. “Low fat vegetarian diets are ideal for people with diabetes.” This is because the more fat in a diet, the harder it is for insulin to get glucose into the cell, and a vegetarian or vegan diet is low in fat [16].

Obesity is a growing pandemic. Worldwide, people are getting larger as a whole [17]. Many people are wondering how they can stop themselves from gaining weight as well, or even lose weight gained. We all know that you have to eat well and exercise, but many people who try various diets seem to gain the weight back within five years. Vegetarianism or veganism are healthy, long term diets, that when done properly, can be very beneficial to your weight, along with exercise. Studies have shown that “meat-eaters have three times the obesity rate of vegetarians and nine times the obesity rate of vegans. It's possible to be an overweight or obese vegan, of course, just as it's possible to be a thin meat-eater, but adult vegans are, on average, 10 to 20 pounds lighter than adult meat-eaters,” [18].
Life Expectancy Rate
It’s probably not surprising that studies have shown that vegetarians and vegans live longer, healthier lives than those who eat meat, not with all of the health benefits received, just by dropping meat from their diet. Those studies have proven that, on average, vegetarians and vegans live between 6 and 10 years longer than omnivores [19].
Soy is a rather controversial topic, some say it’s good, some say it’s bad, and some are allergic to it. When you’re vegetarian or vegan, soy can be a confusing topic. Being vegan while allergic to soy can sound difficult or even impossible, since so many fortified foods vegetarians and vegans need for their nutritional value have soy in them. Though difficult, yes, maybe, being a soy-free vegan is possible, just ask Soy-free Vegan Blogger, “soyfreevegan,” [20]. Soymilk is easy to substitute as well, with either rice milk, coconut milk, or almond milk.
Soy can be a controversial topic because of all of the different information about soy that is floating around; some positive, and some negative. The article “Is It Safe to Eat Soy?” by Virginia Messina, MPH, RD and Mark Messina, PhD sheds some light on the topic. Studies done on soy have come back with both positive and negative results, but “many of the studies that have concluded that soy is unhealthy have used animals as subjects. Drawing conclusions about human health from animal research can be very misleading.” Many of the studies done on humans sowing negative soy affects also have not been as in depth as they should have been, and don’t necessarily show both cause and affect results. It is true that some studies have shown that consuming soy could potentially increase the risk of breast cancer, though the significance is not clear. If you already have breast cancer, reducing soy intake may be a good idea, but there is no actual proof [21].

Veganism and the Environment
Global warming is a hot topic today; pun intended. People are striving to be environmentally friendly by using public transit, environmentally friendly cars, and recycling. Of course doing these things do help the environment, but, veganism is another way to help the environment greatly. According to the United Nations, raising animals for consumption creates “more greenhouse-gas emissions than all the cars, planes, ships, trucks, and trains in the world combined,[22]. Surprised? You shouldn’t be. Livestock production is the cause of 18% of the greenhouse-gas emissions worldwide, along with 37% of global methane and 65% of the world’s nitrous oxide [23]. Why does the meat industry account for so much pollution? It’s not just from raising the animals; it’s also from transporting them, growing their food, transporting the food, and clearing land to raise more animals, to name a few factors.
Everyone knows that plants and trees help the environment. They are the main producer of oxygen in the air; something humans require in order to live [24]. The Livestock, Environment, and Development Initiative has stated that over two thirds of all agricultural land is used for growing crops used to feed livestock, while only 8% is used to grow food that will be fed directly to humans [25].  If we had no livestock to feed, we could have many more forests to help keep the air clean and produce oxygen, as well as more plant based foods, and still have space left over. And, with the ever growing human population, we are in need of more space. In the 20th century alone, the population has risen from 1.6 billion to 6.1 billion [26], and is expected to rise to over 10 billion by the year 2050 [27]. We’re going to need a lot more space to house everyone, and more food to feed them; with the amount of meat we eat rising along with the rising population, we are quickly running out of land space.
Third World Countries
If everyone were to willingly adopt a vegan diet, we already know that there would be more land space, and the ability to make even more food that we already are making, but there’s also the possibility of using these new abilities to help third world countries and help concur hunger and starvation issues. According to the World Food Programme, 925 million people don’t have enough food to eat worldwide [28].  
The Animals
If we were not raising these animals for food, we would require a lot less of the animals. Therefore, as they were no longer needed, we would stop breeding them as much, and they population would decrease, so there is not much need to worry about wild herds of cows rampaging through cities. The animals would remain under control of humans, and humans could even keep them as pets, and for dairy cows, their milk could still be used in pet foods, or just for their own calves.
Of course, it would take several decades to successfully make the change from an omnivorous species, to a herbivorous species. It would take this long because, it would be a very large change, and it would take time for people to find substitutes of many of the animal products we use today. Though it would take a long time, the benefits would be very rewarding, once achieved; the human population would become healthier, and our life expectancy rate would increase. The change would also help with environmental issues the world faces today, and the loss of usable land and forests. The change would also be beneficial worldwide at concurring issues like hunger. In general, making the switch would be a very beneficial act, globally. 


1.       Hill, Michael. “Vegan diets becoming more popular, more mainstream.” MSNBC News.  January 5, 2011.  January 16, 2011. <>
2.       Krizmanic, Judy. “A Teen’s Guide to Going Vegetarian.” United States, Penguin Group Incorporated, 1994.  (p. 10 – 11)
3.       Hackett, Jolinda. “Pescatarian.” Online Posting. Date Unknown. About. January 16, 2011. <>
4.       desertstars. “What exactly is a Pollotarian?” Online Posting. 2009. Yahoo! Answers. January 16, 2011. <>
5.       Leong, Kristie. “How to Eat Calcium Rich Foods on a Vegan Diet.” Online Posting. Date Unknown. eHow. January 16, 2011. <>
6.       “In the News...Vegetarianism: A Few Facts.” Online Posting. Date Unknown. VegSource. January 16, 2011. <>
7.       Krizmanic, Judy. “A Teen’s Guide to Going Vegetarian.” United States, Penguin Group Incorporated, 1994. (p. 188)
8.       Mangels, Reed. “Vitamin B12 in the Vegan Diet.” The Vegetarian Resource Group.  Date Unknown. January 16, 2011. <>
9.       Mangels, Reed. “Vitamin B12 in the Vegan Diet.” The Vegetarian Resource Group.  Date Unknown. January 16, 2011. <>
10.    “Animal Products Are Linked to Heart Disease.” Online Posting. Date Unknown. PETA. January 16, 2011. <>
11.    Krizmanic, Judy. “A Teen’s Guide to Going Vegetarian.” United States, Penguin Group Incorporated, 1994. (p. 50 – 51)
12.    “Cancer.” Online Posting. Date Unknown. PETA. January 16, 2011. <>
13.    “Cancer.” Online Posting. Date Unknown. PETA. January 16, 2011. <>
14.    Group, Edward. “Study: Vegetarians Are 45% Less Likely to Develop Cancer.” Global Healing Center. September 22, 2009. January 16, 2011.<>
15.    “Type 2 Diabetes and the Vegan Diet.” Online Posting. Date Unknown. VeganHealth. January 16, 2011. <>
16.    “Diet and Diabetes: Recipes for Success.” Online Posting. Date Unknown. Your Health. January 16, 2011. <>
17.     Wilson, Deborah. “Eating Meat Is Linked to Obesity.” Online Posting. Date Unknown. PETA. January 16, 2011.<>
18.    Wilson, Deborah. “Eating Meat Is Linked to Obesity.” Online Posting. Date Unknown. PETA. January 16, 2011.<>
19.    “Bill Clinton Named PETA’s 2010 Person of the Year.” Online Posting. 2010. PETA. January 16, 2011. <>
20.    soyfreevegan. “Omega-3’s!” Soy Free Vegan! Tips for Staying Alive as a Vegan with a Soy Allergy. June 19, 2008.  January 16, 2011. <>
21.    Messina, Virginia and Messina, Mark. “Is It Safe to Eat Soy?” Online Posting. Date Unknown. VeganHealth. January 16, 2011. <>
22.    “Meat’s Not Green.” PETA. Date Unknown. PETA. January 21, 2011. <>
23.    “7 Clear-Cut Reasons Why Meat is Bad for the Environment.” Online Posting. September 25. enVeg. January 21, 2011. <>
24.    “Plants.” Online Posting. Date Unknown. Globio.  January 21, 2011. <>
25.    Brooks, Cassandra. “Unintended Consequences of the Meat Industry.” Woods Institute for the Environment. 2004. January 21, 2011.  <>
26.    “How Rising Human Population Could Impact Global Warming.” The Daily Green. July 12, 2009. January 22, 2011. <>
27.    Bongaarts. “Can the Growing Human Population Feed Itself?” Scientific American Magazine. March 1994. January 22, 2011. <>
28.    “Hunger Stats.” Online Posting. Date Unknown. World Food Programme. January 23, 2011. <>

I think I used the wrong formatting for a lot of my references, but I didn't feel like searching up each and every seperate format for each type of word document, and my sheets from English class were lost, but those are all in some form of MLA citing or whatever.

Hilary Duff!

I honestly love Hilary Duff. Last night, instead of doing any of the things I planned for, I listening (and sang along) to Hilary Duff songs for an hour or two. I was home alone. And I will be again tonight!
My favourite Hilary Duff songs are (in no particular order):
Party Up
Workin' It Out
Anywhere But Here
Sweet Sixteen
The Math
Why Not
With Love
Gypsy Woman
Wake Up
Hey Now
Beat of My Heart
Where Did I Go Right
Come Clean
So Yesterday
Rock This World
Who's That Girl
Who's That Girl
Mr. James Dean
Someone's Watching Over Me
Hide Away
The Getaway
Love Just Is
The Last Song

I think that's all of the ones I really like. Which, is a lot of them, but not all. XD
When I was younger, I loved Hilary Duff so much. She brought me and my cousin a lot closer, and now, she's one of the only people I can talk to about certain things. Not problems or something like that, but other things, like conspiracy theories, and ancient history, and writing, and things like that. She no loner shares the love of Hilary Duff though. But, I'm comfortablr enough to sing purposely horrible around her, so she gets to hear me sing Hilary Duff songs to her. >:)

Friday, February 18, 2011


This weekend I plan on doing my math, chemistry, and global history homework, writing (maybe finishing) the short story for Johnny, reading at least the first part of the Vampire Chronicles (hopefully), catching up on sleep, and maybe even watching a movie, or learning more about UFO's or Moth Man. I've been kind of interested in those things recently, I don't know why...
I wont be able to talk to Johnny today becuase he's going out of town for a gig or something. I'm not completely sure. He messaged me on Facebook to tell me. So, I don't even really need to be on MSN tonight. I don't talk to anyone else on there. Was I already talking about something like this? I'm not sure, so I'll say it here, incase I didn't before. I hardly talk to anyone on MSN. I talk to Johnny daily, and other than that, there are like 4 people I talk to on there every once in a while. XD When Johnny was here a few days ago, like always, my msn was open, because this is my computer, my passwords are all remembered, I sign in automatically, etc. So Johnny for some reason started going through my contacts asking "Who's this?" for almost everyone, and I don't talk to most of the people on there anymore, so I'd tell him that, and we got into discussions about a few of the people, and then he deleted them all, he deleted probably half of the contacts, which is something I'd never have gotten around to on my own. XD Though he wasn't doing it to help me really, he said he just liked knowing who I talk to, which I understand. Some people may say that's controlling, but I don't think it is, and if I wanted the person left there, they stayed there. That was only like 2 people though.. XD But Johnny has nothing to be worried about with me talking to other people, or anything like that. I hardly talk to anyone on computers, other than my friends who I know in real life. I don't want him to think he cant trust me or something. He should know he can. I definately have nothing to hide, well nothing bad.
Anyways, I should go read or something now. Bye!

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Books, Hockey, Annoying Girls, and School. Not in that order.

I got out of school at lunch today because since it's Winter Carnival at school, today from 1:30 to 3:00 there was the student-teacher hockey game, at a nearby sportsplex. I don't like hockey, and I don't want to walk in the cold, to watch hockey in the cold, only to walk back to the school an hour or so later, in the cold. So I had my mom pick me up at lunch after I wrote an in class math assignment that I had missed. The only classes I had today were two hours of math, and one of chemistry. Chemistry is getting a lot easier now.
For the last two days though, I've been getting really cranky easily, especially in school. Like, all of my friends are just being really annoying, I find. Like, in math, Vicki sat in my seat, because she must have thought I was not coming to class, since I got there a minute late, and then, when I asked her to switch, she said one minute, so I had to sit back farther, where I can't see the board, and pretend to not be mad. The teacher was going over a question I didn't understand, and of course, since I couldn't see the board, I never understood it. I asked her two more times, and finally when class was like halfway over, she switched seats. And, in Chemistry, every day Brandon "forgets" his text book, sometimes a pen, and a calculator, and asks to borrow mine, and never pays attention when the teacher is talking, and talks to the people behind us, so it's hard for me to hear, and since he doesn't know what to do, he just copies my answers down.
Then, today, he asked why I looked sad. Last week, when I was sad, no one noticed, but this week, when I'm happy, people think I'm sad! I don't care that they didn't notice I wasn't, but I don't want them thinking I'm sad when I'm not. I just keep getting progrssively more annoyed throughout the day. Pretty soon, I'm going to get mad at someone too, mostlikely Brandon, since with him, it's a daily occurence.
Yesterday or the day before, this 13 year old from my school, who I've known since she was like 4, but she's really annoying, asked me if Johnny and I still talk since breaking up, she doesn't know we're back together, well, she didn't then. And, she asked three times, I just kept ignoring her, because it's really none of her business. But she wants to know everyone's business. She's an attention whore. That was the end of our conversation. She also started talking to Johnny too, because I was friends with him, so of course she had to be too. I hate that she talks to him, and he hates that she talks to him. And, she commented on his Facebook status, and she and his friend got in a small arguement and Johnny told them to grow up. Then she messages him on Facebook (this was last night when Johnny was here) and she said she was depressed becuase he told her to grow up, and then went on about how she was raped (I highly dout she was ever raped. If she was, she wouldn't tell everyone.) And, Johnny mentioned that he was here, and then she went on about how she thought we were just friends. And, how she was "raped" etc. She wanted sympathy, but she got the exact opposite, which she gets from most people. She has no friends, but for good reasons, so I don't feel bad for her at all.
Anyways, today, when I got picked up from school, my mother and I went to town, so I could go to the bookstore and maybe get a book. After searching around there for a good book, for like 30 minutes, because the only bookstore around here really isn't that great, I found a big fancy looking book by Anne Rice, the Vampire Chronicals. I think that's what it's called. It's supposed to be a good series. It's all three books in one. It's big and grey, with black design, and there's one of those ribbons in it to mark your page, and the edges of the pages are gold, so the book closed looks like it has gold pages! The main reason I got the book was because it looked cool. There aren't many books I was right now, but I'm waiting for two that are supposed to come out in May. I'm excited for those.
Other than that, there isn't really much interesting going on in my life right now. Things are really good with Johnny, I understand what we're doing in all of my classes, for the most part, I have a Chemistry quiz tomorrow that I really think I'm going to do good on, etc.. Oh, I'm writing again! Just one short story, so far, and I'm taking my time, but I want it to be really good. It's for Johnny, I told him I'd write him two, and later that night, a sentence popped into my mind, and I was able to get 3 or 4 paragraphs that night. I haven't written since, but it's only been a two days since I said I would, so there's no rush or anything, maybe I'll be able to write tonight. If not, this weekend for sure.
Anyways, I should go.

Day Twelve and Thirteen, Challenge Three

12: What item of clothing do you wear the most?
13: What can you not live without?
12: Probably the shirt from Johnny. I wear it around the house a lot. I don't wear it in public as much, I don't know why, maybe becuase it's such a special shirt, and I don't want society dirtying it.. XD I don't really know why.
13: Oxygen. I don't think I really need to explain that one..

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Day Eleven, Challenge Three.

11: What is your favorite quote? How does it relate to your life?
My favourite quote is
"Do you feel blame? Are you mad? Uh, do you feel like wolf kabob Roth vantage? Gefrannis booj pooch boo jujube; bear-ramage. Jigiji geeji geeja geeble google. Do you begep flagaggle vaggle veditch-waggle bagga?" - Charles Manson
But, it doesn't really relate to my life, at all... I don't even think it means anything.

Last night.

Last night, Johnny came over. He didn't get here until almost 7:00, because he slept in, and then a few other reasons. At first, I thought he was just trying to avoid coming over, but then, 5 minutes after saying he'd leave in 30 minutes, he left to come over.
He got here around 6:50. When he first came inside, and asked how I was I honestly almost started crying then, but it was dark, so I was able to stop it from happening before he noticed. Then we went to my room, and I gave him his valentines day card, and then he sat on my bed, and I leaned against my dresser, and we just kind of looked at eachother, and around, until we finally started talking. It didn't take long for me to start crying then. XD We talked a bit about the situation, and then decided to kind of get back together. We're not in a relationship, we're just together. But, that's good enough for me. That's all we were for most of the relationship.
I don't know if I had mentioned before, but incase I didn't know what to say, I had written a letter to him as well, so he could read it incase I couldn't say what I meant. I got what I meant out without the letter, but told him about the letter afterwards, and let him read it anyways. He said it was really sweet and that he wanted to keep it, so he did. Things are kind of like they were before we broke up, I mean that in a good way. Apparently last night, he came with the intentions of officially breaking up with me, I think because he didn't want me to care about him even more, and get more hurt in the end. But, I told him that wouldn't happen, and that I'd try to care less about him.
I do hope the relationship lasts until after a year (July) so I don't have to worry about missing school because we officially broke up. And because I'd prefer if it did last over a year, just because it would make it seem more special.
Since we got back together, I have been happier. I was able to go to school today, and have fun there, too. I understand what's going on in all of my classes except Chemistry, which will hopefully be sorted out over the next few days.
I know things wont last between Johnny and I, he's told me for the start, and I chose to stay with him, because I knew it'd be a good and fun experience, and it has been, and it's brought us a lot closer then we probably would have ever gotten without it. I wasn't ready for it to end yet, and now we have a second chance to make thigns last longer, and have more good experiences.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Today's the day...

that Johnny comes over and we talk. I find it kind of ironic that it's on Valentine's Day, because it's a day to show people how much to love them, and we're talking about our relationship that ended just a few days ago, and seeing if we're even able to ever back back together.
I have no idea how it will go. Sometimes in person I wont say everything I want to say, or I'll be crying too much to say it, so I wrote a letter, as a back up plan.
I hope today goes well. I did not go to school today, and depending on how today goes, I may not go tomorrow.
We talked a lot about the issue last night, he had to ask me twice to change the subject, and wait until tomorrow (today) to talk about this. So, finally we were able to talk like normal friends with no problems. But that was only after I told him how I really felt, which he probbaly already knew, but oh well. Well, I didn't tell him just how much I care about him, which is a huge ammount, but he doesn't want me in love with him, or even close to being in love, so I tell him I'm not, and wont be, because if I thought I really wouldend up in love with him, there'd be no chance of us getting back together. And, I don't think I can care about him more than I already do, so no matter how long it lasts, I'll always be this upset about it.

Three relationships have ended recently that I know of, from Facebook. One was between two people who weren't together too long, and she seems okay with it, and the other was with people who I think were together for over a year, and he wanted to leave, but she still loved him, so I kind of know what she's going through.
I've never been heart broken before. I never thought I would be. I had always told myself, boys are just boys, there are plenty more out there, and the one that stays is the only one that matters. Which I still understand, but refuse to apply to this situation. Johnny is a really amazing guy. I tell him this constantly. We actually had a conversation about it last night, like him being an amazing guy in general, not just as a boyfriend. I've known him for almost a year, it'll be a year in March, and he's given me so many reasons to think he's amazing, and I can't think of one to make me think any differently at all. Of course, he has negative traits, but everyone does, and he's able to control those traits for the most part, so it's really good.
Last night, I finally messaged one of my friends, the one who messaged me on Facebook, asking if I was okay, more information about the break up, she's never really been good at helping people before, but apparently she's getting better now, and I needed someone to talk to. Hopefully talking to her will help a lot. When I do go back to school, I'm going to need a lot of support just to be able to stay there and pay attention and get all my work done, and of course, keep from crying.
Johnny said he wants to talk a lot today, and so do I.
Even if we only stay friends, I want to be close friends. I honestly would have to say he's the best friend I have. I don't really use the term best friend anymore, but out of my friends, he's the best. If he ever needed help with anything, I'd help him, no matter what it was. I'd probably help him bury a body if he needed my help, but he's not the murdering type, so I doubt he'll ever show up at my door at 3 am, covered in blood, holding a shovel.
But, like with moving, (I don't know if I gave him the idea first, but I did mention it, and he said ti was a good idea) that he should stay around here when his parents move, to see if he likes it, and if he wants to, move over there eventually. Because if he moves over there, and doesn't like it, moving there and then back here would be more work than moving around here and then over there.  That first sentence makes no sense... XD Okay, anyways, he says he may want to move over to where his parents are, because it would be easier, but he's always seemed to want to stay around here, because it's where he grew up, and if he didn't move, and stayed around here, if he ever needed help with anything, I'd always be there to help him.
No matter what happens, I know eventually, I'll be okay, but until then, it'll be rough. Of course, things could get better today, meaning we get back together or think about getting back together more, but things could also get worse today, meaning, he thinks it's best if we don't ever get back together and stay just friends.
I look at the pictures of him on my camera a lot. They make me really sad, since a lot of them were taken the day before we broke up, and he seemed so happy in them.
He says he didn't want things to end so soon either, and could have been happy with me until June or July, so I don't fully understand why he isn't sure if he wants to get back together or not, but I guess I'll find out in a few hours... I'm really nervous.
Since the break up, and Wednesday before he got here, I've been worried/upset by the problem a lot, and have had no appitite. Thursday, when he was here, I ate normally. And, we broke up Friday, and I've hardly eaten since, and it's not bothering me. I do eat daily, just not much.
Anyways, I should go, I have to clean my room, and make myself look presentable, rather than how I look now - wearing fur covered dirty clothes, my hair a mess, my teeth unbrushed, my eyes red, and my skin probably extra pale, and very dark circles under my eyes.

Oh, one more thing! Here's my horoscope for today:
Take the initiative now -- communication is your strong point, so start persuading. The stars enable you to go farther and faster than ever, and all the right people are keeping up with you.

It sounds perfect for today. I hope it's right. It does kind of make it seem like today is going to go good with Johnny.

Day Ten, Challenge Three.

10: If you could only live off of one food and one beverage for the rest of your days, what would they be?
This challenge is kind of boring.. XD
Anyways, I couldn't pick just one food, for sure.
I might be okay living off fruit punch for a beverage. I do like fruit punch, but after a while, it'd get boring.

Sunday, February 13, 2011


I found a note on Facebook, that I wanted to write, but it's too person for Facebook, so I'll post it here.

What’s something that can always make you feel better? 

Is there something you always wear? 
My bracelet from JohNNy.

What was the last thing you put in your mouth? 

Name someone that made you laugh today? 
I didn’t laugh.

Ever been kissed under fireworks? 

What bed did you sleep in last night? 
I slept on one of my cousin’s couches.

What was the last thing someone bought for you? 

 Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? 
Some are.

Has anyone ever called you perfect before? 

What song is stuck in your head? 

Someone knocks on your window at 2am, who do you want it to be? 

What was the last book you read? 
The Forbidden Game.

Have you ever dyed your hair? 

Any summer plans for 2011? 

Whats on your schedule for tomorrow? 
Skipping school, and JohNNy’s coming over.

Do you like somebody?
I love JohNNy.

When was the last time you were told you were cute?
Wednesday or Thursday maybe.

When was the last time you were truly, completely happy with your life?
Like, three weeks ago.

When’s the next time you will see the person who absolutely takes your breath away?
Well, my breath does come back, but sometimes JohNNy does, and I’ll see him tomorrow.

What is your relationship status?
Not in a relationship. I don’t like saying single.

Do you think you will be in a relationship two months from now?
I hope, with JohNNy.

Has the last person you kissed ever told you they love you?

Do you still pinky promise?

When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
Thursday night, right before leaving.

Your best friend has sex with your ex, so what happens?
If it was the first, I’d think they were dumb. If it was the second, I’d hate them.

Have you taken off someones pants lately?
I’ve helped to.

Your friend kisses the boy/girl you like ?
I’d hate them.

Honestly who was the last person to tell you they love you?

Is it possible to be single and happy?
Yeah, it is.

Do you find piercings attractive?
I don’t care.

Last person you kissed?

Ever been in love?
I don’t know, maybe.

What will you do in two hours?
Cry, maybe talk to JohNNy.

Whats on your bed right now?
Blankets, pillows, clothes, me, my bookbag, and textbooks.

Where did you sleep last night?
My cousins couch.

Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?
I don’t text.

Are you happy with the way things are?

Do you always answer your texts?
I don’t text.

In the past week, have you cried?

Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2009?

It’s 4 in the morning, your phone rings, who is it?
I don’t care, unless it’s JohNNy.

Do you like your phone?
I don’t have a cellphone.

If you woke up naked next to the last person you texted what would you say?
I don’t text.

What are the main websites you go on?

Would you be able to name everyone you have kissed in ‘10?

Is there a member of the opposite sex on your mind?

Do you still talk to the last person you kissed?

You kissed someone last night, didn't you?

Did you have a better day yesterday or today?
Neither have been good.

Is anything bugging you right now?

Does it make you mad when people stare at you?
It depends on who it is.

Do you want to be single?
Not at all.

Are you single?

Last time you were truly happy?
Three weeks or like a month and a half ago.

Have you ever felt replaced?

Do you trust all of your friends?

Currently wanting something?
JohNNy and I to get back together.

Drunk this weekend?

Do you think there is ONE guy out there that actually completely understands you?

If you got paid a million bucks to kiss Neapolian Dynamite, would you?
I guess, maybe.

What do you think about highschool sweethearts?
It’s sweet.

Do you watch any really lame shows?
I don’t really watch tv.

Are you afraid to fall in love?
I’m afriad of getting hurt.

Quick lyric from the last song you listened to?
I don’t remember.

Are you one to just give up?
Wiht somethings.

Do you know how to let go?
I guess not, I’ve never had to before, until now.

Do you regret anything?
Yes, the three weeks.

Are you an outgoing person?

Shit happens right?

What movie(s) do you really wanna see?

Who makes you feel better when you're really upset?
JohNNy is the only one who can.

Is there someone you just can't get enough of?

What helps you relax?

Do you like to cuddle?
With JohNNy.

Are you happy with the choices you've made?
Not recently.

If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?

Do you usually apologize first?
Only if I care about the person a lot.

Do you believe what goes around comes around?
I don’t know.

Have you ever sent a text to the wrong person?

How did you meet the last male you texted?
I don’t text.

Sex ruins relationships, right?
Some, but not all.

Do you think it’s a bunch of bull shit when people say “I have no regrets"?
Not always.

There's a serial killer inside your house. What do you do?

Would your parents be mad if you came home drunk?
I don’t know.

Has anyone told you they don't ever wanna lose you?

Have you ever dated the same person more than twice?

Do you ever use caps lock?

Are you or were you anyones first love?

Do you look people in the eyes when you talk to them?
Sometimes, it depends on the person.

Think of the last guy/girl who said I like you, do you think they meant it?
Yes, I hope so.

Who was the last person to play with your hair?

Do you think you will be married by the time you are 35?

Do you like it when guys put their hats on your head?
I find it funny. Only JohNNy does it. I wouldn’t find it funny with anyone else.

Do you think it's possible to be friends with someone you wanna be with?

Do you know what it's like to have to move on without wanting to?

Who's the last person you texted? Have yall ever kissed?
I don’t text.

Is there anyone you wanna go back and try thing's out with for a second time?

Think back to May, how was your love life?
I didn’t have one.

Is there anyone that you care more about than yourself?

When a friend walks out of your life, do you go after them or let them go?
It depends on how much I care about them. The only one I’d go after right now, is JohNNy.

Do you know a secret about your last ex that would embarrass them?
Yeah, but I’d never tell.

Do you feel like you’re a good person?

Have you ever let someone be your everything?

Boys are always good with their words, am I right?
Sometimes, maybe.

If your walls were talking to you, what would they say?
They’d have a lot to say.