I've always wanted to write a novel. But, every single time I try, I end up quitting, because I'm not longer happy with the plot, or I've messed it up so much I don't even want to fix it.  I almost always get my inspiration and ideas from my dreams.
I haven't been able to write in a really long time, it's almost like full-time writers block.
I've always thought about writing about something like a teenagers life and their struggles, I don't know why I haven't. I know the topic well enough. Like, a book kind of like Cut. Like, it would be about issues I understand. Like, it wouldnt be about being addicted to heroin, because I've never even seen heroin in real life, so I have no idea what it's like to be addicted to it.
I was thinking of trying again to write, but as soon as Microsoft Word was opened to a fresh document, I had no idea what to say or how to start it.

One reason I want to try this is because quite often I'll get this pull in my mind, like there's something I want, or want to do, but I never know what it is. Sometimes for a split second I know what it is, but then quickly it's gone, and I can't remember at all what it was. It would seem kind of logical if it were about reading or writing, because I used to always read and write, and I loved it. Same with ancient history and space. I used to love those things so much.

A book I want, in a series I'm reading, is coming out on the 3rd, and another on the 24th... so those might maybe make me feel better or more like reading or writing for a bit. I have no idea who I am anymore, maybe this could help. I don't think I can ever go back to who I was before Johnny and I got together. I have to recreate myself. Maybe this would help, since I'm pretty much going nowhere else good...