I think I'm going to switch schools.
That ex-best friend of mine, the one that ignored Johnny for two months, I can't stand her at all anymore.
I've been getting really angry recently, with just about everything/everyone. And, well, I of course have a reason to be mad at her. I hate her fucking guts. Everyone see's her as this sweet and innocent girl, when really she's a complete fucking bitch. Every time I see or think of her, I want to smash her face into the wall until she dies. But I don't want to go to jail, and I don't want Johnny to hate me. So, instead, I'm switching schools, to get away from her. I'm going to talk to my mother about it tomorrow, since today is Mother's Day, she doesn't need to know this now. Of course, this means no Europe trip, but I was thinking of dropping out anyways.
I messaged Johnny on MSN asking him to message me when he got the message, and he responded saying he was about to take a nap. He said he could stay and talk if I wanted to, and I said that it was okay and we could talk after he woke up, so I'm just waiting for him to come back on now. I want to talk to him about it. I always go to him for advice. I kind of want to talk to my cousin about it too, because while I can talk to Johnny about it, and I really want to, I can't tell him that I want to smash her face into a wall until she dies. I can tell my cousin that. She'll be shocked, because she may not even know we don't talk anymore, but she won't think I'm crazy, or hate me for it. And I can't exactly tell my mother that either. So I will tell my cousin.
And, once I know for sure I am switching schools, I will have to tell all of my friends. I'll probably just message them on Facebook, and I'll say why too, but without the whole smashing her head into a wall until she dies type thing. I kind of want to talk to her ex too, because he had to deal with most of the bitchy things she did, too, so he'd understand.
I just hate her so much, and I don't need her ruining my last year of high school. I'd rather be in a school where I don't know anyone then be in one with her.